Friday, July 13, 2012
Flock of Freedom: The Subtle Times
Flock of Freedom: The Subtle Times: Greetings from the deck in Pennsylvania! Watching the blue jays and chipmunks play around the water fountain; allowing my whole Being to da...
The Subtle Times
Greetings from the deck in Pennsylvania!
Watching the blue jays and chipmunks play around the water fountain; allowing my whole Being to dance with Snatum Kaur in the background- feeling an inner push back and pull down- all from asking the question what wants to get experienced this day- creation and connection!
And isn't it interesting that the mind immediately went to oh I can create this and connect with this person...all on the outer!
That is the subtlety that I am experiencing here- by myself- with no work- no social life- not really much happening in the outer- which is a very odd experience for this manifestor! This is the experience as I weeded yesterday- having to go in between tiny little flowers and weeds- slowing it down- getting very clear- doing my part!
When I first landed here, what came to me was to commit fully to Me- and asking what that might mean or look like- I kept receiving the knowing that no matter what the outer looked like (what I was doing for work, money in the bank account, relationships)- that I could source my own joy, richness, love, peace- and I source it all- the lack, the disconnection, the uncomfortableness!
And you know I have heard these words for years----the words can be placeholders- people who are actually experiencing this say them with a vibration that holds the space for anyone who chooses to come and experience the feel- for even a brief moment- that gives us a chance to remember! Or they can be said from the mind- it is subtle and I am now experiencing the difference within- each day. And when I read something on FB...I see us all!
So I am committed to Me- to experience the fullness of Me- walking, crawling, dancing, smiling, crying, trusting into I Source everything! It so reminds me of the last journey I experienced in group- everyone in the group went away even the shaman (male)- except the medicine and the other shaman (female) and as people started going away the medicine kept asking me is this ok- I kept saying yes until it got to it and the woman and I said no and that is ok- I am good with this! So for now I listen to Snatum, sipping coffee, and watching nature! And finally remembering that creation happens in the space- in the in between!
And breathe everyone- for what do I place myself on the altar to be altered- we/us/you/me!
I love YOu! I love Me!
Lynn
Watching the blue jays and chipmunks play around the water fountain; allowing my whole Being to dance with Snatum Kaur in the background- feeling an inner push back and pull down- all from asking the question what wants to get experienced this day- creation and connection!
And isn't it interesting that the mind immediately went to oh I can create this and connect with this person...all on the outer!
That is the subtlety that I am experiencing here- by myself- with no work- no social life- not really much happening in the outer- which is a very odd experience for this manifestor! This is the experience as I weeded yesterday- having to go in between tiny little flowers and weeds- slowing it down- getting very clear- doing my part!
When I first landed here, what came to me was to commit fully to Me- and asking what that might mean or look like- I kept receiving the knowing that no matter what the outer looked like (what I was doing for work, money in the bank account, relationships)- that I could source my own joy, richness, love, peace- and I source it all- the lack, the disconnection, the uncomfortableness!
And you know I have heard these words for years----the words can be placeholders- people who are actually experiencing this say them with a vibration that holds the space for anyone who chooses to come and experience the feel- for even a brief moment- that gives us a chance to remember! Or they can be said from the mind- it is subtle and I am now experiencing the difference within- each day. And when I read something on FB...I see us all!
So I am committed to Me- to experience the fullness of Me- walking, crawling, dancing, smiling, crying, trusting into I Source everything! It so reminds me of the last journey I experienced in group- everyone in the group went away even the shaman (male)- except the medicine and the other shaman (female) and as people started going away the medicine kept asking me is this ok- I kept saying yes until it got to it and the woman and I said no and that is ok- I am good with this! So for now I listen to Snatum, sipping coffee, and watching nature! And finally remembering that creation happens in the space- in the in between!
And breathe everyone- for what do I place myself on the altar to be altered- we/us/you/me!
I love YOu! I love Me!
Lynn
Monday, June 18, 2012
Flock of Freedom: I don't know nothing about birthing no baby.....
Flock of Freedom: I don't know nothing about birthing no baby.....: Whew, what a few days it is...still is as of today, Monday June 19th when I woke up at 9:00 remembering a dream- to be shared later- and the...
I don't know nothing about birthing no baby.....
Whew, what a few days it is...still is as of today, Monday June 19th when I woke up at 9:00 remembering a dream- to be shared later- and then promptly rolled back to sleep until 12:00 noon- then getting up and feeling like I had been drugged, drank a whole bottle of wine..... coffee, please!
It all began on a bike ride this last Thursday- I felt a tiredness, a pain and pulled over- I have learned to ask my body what it is up and I heard we are not working well together- there is an out of balance ( the masculine and feminine). I breathed through the discomfort and asked what shall I do and heard just go on...so I got on my bike and went on..knowing that there was more to that message than the simple get back on the bike.
I have a business coach, Alaya Gold- and she is no ordinary business coach as this coaching business I am creating is no ordinary business (baby).... she channels guides, reads Akashic records..... is there to support me in stepping through myself (baby). We had a session on Friday and I never know what is going to come up- I chose to ask the guides what was needed next for me to step out and I heard a strong message to be fearless- to fly- that falling is no longer a part of who I am- I have to expect to fly and I have to trust the Great Mother to provide; thank you as it always helps me to write this down....
As I began to feel this, I found a tightness, tension in my vaginal area (vulva)- and the words came out of me- I have never given birth before and it feels like I don't want the baby to come out! I could feel my little girl that I have already done such work with in bringing her back safely, afraid...memory of my sexual abuse came up again as well as something deeper- something that goes back a long time- primal.... I took some time away from the call and went and screamed into a pillow, lay on the ground, cried and cried.... I have never birthed something all of my own- I have always supported another in the birthing- and that goes with having children too- always caring for others' children. As we continued on I got to speak to both the masculine and feminine and share what I was grateful for...that lightened things up tremendously and seemed to bring a balance and harmony back. It is clear that I am being birthed anew and it is showing up in the physical manifestation of the business- and that nothing will get birthed in a new way unless my masculine and feminine are playing well together.
So I was left with a suggestion by Alaya to plant and garden this weekend and get close to the earth with my vaginal area- to remember the enjoyment of touch and physical intimacy and to release the tension and tightness.
And so I felt all the feelings and memories that came up- and it was interesting because it wasn't felt in a devastating take me to bed for days way, like I used to feel things- it was a true feeling and without story- like I felt it and it was gone. I planted peppers and Italian parsley- I began and tended my own fire (which I have never done from start to finish)- I spent time in the hot tub- I spent time laying on the ground- I slowed down even more than ever- I remembered to feel the heartbeat of the Great Mother- I heard the cries of the children and said no- no longer saving anyone- and for once in my life over an extended period of time, I felt like I wasn't alone anymore- I could really feel the presence of my guides! I could feel the masculine and feminine playing together well.
This morning's dream was of me creating a program for children outdoors- there were cats all over the place and it was going well- until the alligators decided to let themselves out of their cage- and they frightened everyone and ate a cat! The alligators told me to take time to digest what I am learning and are messages from the ancestors and the cat told me to enjoy intimacy and physical touch- listen to my intuitive guidance and that whatever has been released will be replaced with something more suitable for who I am now!
I am sitting in such gratitude for it all- I love the stories that tell me what is up and trust that I do know what to do, how to be! Today's practice is before I do anything to check in with my masculine and feminine and see how it feels- to breath a lot- because even though I have never birthed a baby- she is coming and I am creating a world in which she is desired and loved and held and nurtured and taken care of!
As I sit here and read this, I feel the pulsing of life in all parts of my Being- especially in my vaginal area- the Baby is crowning.... And as I read it again I acknowledge my gift of being a midwife...
Love,
Lynn
It all began on a bike ride this last Thursday- I felt a tiredness, a pain and pulled over- I have learned to ask my body what it is up and I heard we are not working well together- there is an out of balance ( the masculine and feminine). I breathed through the discomfort and asked what shall I do and heard just go on...so I got on my bike and went on..knowing that there was more to that message than the simple get back on the bike.
I have a business coach, Alaya Gold- and she is no ordinary business coach as this coaching business I am creating is no ordinary business (baby).... she channels guides, reads Akashic records..... is there to support me in stepping through myself (baby). We had a session on Friday and I never know what is going to come up- I chose to ask the guides what was needed next for me to step out and I heard a strong message to be fearless- to fly- that falling is no longer a part of who I am- I have to expect to fly and I have to trust the Great Mother to provide; thank you as it always helps me to write this down....
As I began to feel this, I found a tightness, tension in my vaginal area (vulva)- and the words came out of me- I have never given birth before and it feels like I don't want the baby to come out! I could feel my little girl that I have already done such work with in bringing her back safely, afraid...memory of my sexual abuse came up again as well as something deeper- something that goes back a long time- primal.... I took some time away from the call and went and screamed into a pillow, lay on the ground, cried and cried.... I have never birthed something all of my own- I have always supported another in the birthing- and that goes with having children too- always caring for others' children. As we continued on I got to speak to both the masculine and feminine and share what I was grateful for...that lightened things up tremendously and seemed to bring a balance and harmony back. It is clear that I am being birthed anew and it is showing up in the physical manifestation of the business- and that nothing will get birthed in a new way unless my masculine and feminine are playing well together.
So I was left with a suggestion by Alaya to plant and garden this weekend and get close to the earth with my vaginal area- to remember the enjoyment of touch and physical intimacy and to release the tension and tightness.
And so I felt all the feelings and memories that came up- and it was interesting because it wasn't felt in a devastating take me to bed for days way, like I used to feel things- it was a true feeling and without story- like I felt it and it was gone. I planted peppers and Italian parsley- I began and tended my own fire (which I have never done from start to finish)- I spent time in the hot tub- I spent time laying on the ground- I slowed down even more than ever- I remembered to feel the heartbeat of the Great Mother- I heard the cries of the children and said no- no longer saving anyone- and for once in my life over an extended period of time, I felt like I wasn't alone anymore- I could really feel the presence of my guides! I could feel the masculine and feminine playing together well.
This morning's dream was of me creating a program for children outdoors- there were cats all over the place and it was going well- until the alligators decided to let themselves out of their cage- and they frightened everyone and ate a cat! The alligators told me to take time to digest what I am learning and are messages from the ancestors and the cat told me to enjoy intimacy and physical touch- listen to my intuitive guidance and that whatever has been released will be replaced with something more suitable for who I am now!
I am sitting in such gratitude for it all- I love the stories that tell me what is up and trust that I do know what to do, how to be! Today's practice is before I do anything to check in with my masculine and feminine and see how it feels- to breath a lot- because even though I have never birthed a baby- she is coming and I am creating a world in which she is desired and loved and held and nurtured and taken care of!
As I sit here and read this, I feel the pulsing of life in all parts of my Being- especially in my vaginal area- the Baby is crowning.... And as I read it again I acknowledge my gift of being a midwife...
Love,
Lynn
Friday, June 8, 2012
Flock of Freedom: Life Review Gift- I am an Empath
Flock of Freedom: Life Review Gift- I am an Empath: I was gifted with this video from another blogger I follow- Whitehawk! It is a bit lengthy and yet packed with gifts. As I watched th...
Life Review Gift- I am an Empath
Watching this video, I breathe in a passionate desire that has always been present for me to make life more sacred, beautiful, safe and peaceful. Watching this video, I claim my gift at feeling emotions and allowing them to guide me; watching this video I begin to see the gift being abused as a child was- it opened me up and I had always seen it as a closing down!
As I watch this I remember living with the beautiful ones in Mexico (Nancy, Olivier and Susan) and feeling an emotion and practicing the bringing up in an offer of openness and community- I am feeling this- allowing me to own what is mine and also allowing others to own what is theirs.
It was a sweet moment- one I wonder if we can all allow to happen again and again and again until we have a new world. And I wonder what that world would look like?
I Love all of our courage!
Lynn
Thursday, June 7, 2012
Flock of Freedom: Life Review
Flock of Freedom: Life Review: Life Review seems to be the theme these past two days as I came across the newest article by Lisa Renee http://www.energeticsynthesis.com; ...
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