Leadership Consciousness

This has been written over the last two days beginning Tuesday the 25th and I have to say it feels like it has been longer than that- could today be Wednesday?

I picked the Moses card last night as I was sitting with a very strong desire, wish to shift  the stories holding us- to allow for heaven on earth- to vibrate only that which is love- Moses is about leadership and about taking action- I can feel it is action inspired by Spirit- great things were done in strong intention by Moses- the parting of the Red Sea- as I write this I remember the message of the bee during circle meditation- the bee is so heavy and yet is able to keep in flight somehow- strong intention no matter what.  That was one of the gifts given to me recently as a sign.

And again this morning I open up Rev Angela’s post to find a reference to Moses- the leadership consciousness.  I open up to allow this in this morning and as soon as I did- I was shown the judgment that Donna (Donna is the woman I care for in exchange for room and board) had about me getting up at 6:45 by her statement that she makes almost every morning of her having  to get me up- all in a swoosh I got a hit to dive in- state the judgment I felt behind the statement and open up to allow her to step into owning her feelings- exactly what I had been writing about the No Story Hour (another gift from the meditation of an offer to the world)- whooo…. It is happening, I am it- at the same millisecond I saw the story I had about her which made me not do this in the past- she has had a brain injury, she is older and not doing the work all of it…… and I remember what I strongly stated to Jason yesterday- I am here to vibrate for each Being to step into their power with no story around the who…… here we go….

So the beginning of the end of this story is that after we got back on track this morning I took Donna to her exercise class for the first time since her original accident- she was excited and nervous.  I dropped her and sat in the lobby feeling leadership in the information I put out about an offer here in Boulder of Latihan- when Donna came out of her class I could tell there was an issue- at first I thought she was emotional about this big first- she was quiet and teary….she said no to coffee with the girls which I understand is a tradition and she said no to King Soopers on the way home when she was so excited to get food to cook for her daughter coming over on Thursday- I noticed her looking around as we drove not really seeing and as I write this getting that she was seeing for the first time.  Wow- this is for why I write- I am getting such a beautiful download about my time with her yesterday and I must share it!  I am blessed with a piece of what  I bring  in this world to see things, people, situations in ways other do not- I am able to take journeys and see colors, shapes and patterns not of this world we walk around in- some people call it going through a veil.  As I write this and remember her in the car and at the hospital yesterday, I know she was experiencing all that- I was quiet for the most part- tender- acknowledging her fear- she kept looking at me in the hospital and I just witnessed her.

She got to see what truly is and I got to witness her – I knew she was a big soul for calling me in and I knew I was going to get a gift- I have gotten many- but oh wow!  This is potent- listening to Snatum Kaur singing guide my way home- Sat Nam.

Donna is in the hospital dying as I write this- she is leaving her body and her spirit is leaving differently- I honor this experience and ask to experience all of it 100%.

I AM HERE TO GUIDE THE WAY HOME!  Feeling that and the gift it is for me and any other- we are all on our way and right now this Being is leading by just Being.

What’s next Beautiful One!!!!

The Ascension Hike

What a week or more....can't quite follow the days- in the moment, I feel fullness and width and breadth and if I widen back a bit I can feel quick shifts and if I widen back even more, I feel like I have experienced lifetimes in these moments!
Last Wednesday, I moved to another house sit by myself.  The house and grounds are beautiful- especially the grounds- pool, lush gardens, lots of green- so I moved from the house I was sharing with two others into all this space.  And in all this space, movement and shifts were created.
On Thursday, I felt aggravation and off balance- not quite what I have been experiencing and trusting it was perfect.  As I was witnessed by those Beings I am communing with, it became clear I was out of alignment- how it looked was I had chosen to return to a consciousness of lack, of MINE- the people in this house are clearly rich, wealthy and yet I had to ask the maid to get toliet paper and it was locked up in the owner's room.  Well, this is not the world I am creating- I am creating richness, abundance, sharing of resources... I was aggravated- why was I here again?
And you know I don't know the answer but I have met all the feelings with no agenda- not wanting them to leave, or go away, or stay- just being present to the experience.  I have experienced the energy of the elite in me, I sat today and saw and felt the land telling me that no one owns it- it is not MINE, I experienced annoyance towards the dogs I am caring for, I felt the fear of the power of money and MINE- the dark, I have felt the disconnection  from all the creative energy I had been feeling, I have felt the seperation from the whole- alone and feeling sorry for myself- probably more and that is what is coming up now.  All through this I have been honest with what I have been feeling- being present with the others I hang with - witnessing them in what has been up for them- seeing in real time how we are all connected!  And today I feel the love I have for mySelf and the acceptance of where the owners are and the gratitude for my choice of Being in this world, in this way.  It feels like I have the space to hold it all and in this I feel creation surging again.
Friday I cancelled a tennis game- much to the woman's chagrin- and listened to my urge to hike the mountain.  This was a hike to ceremony grounds the indigineous use and when I heard about it - knew it was for me.
I hiked multi-dimensionally- meaning as I hiked up- I saw and felt the story that kept me where I always have been in life- that's enough for today, I think I will stop here; it's too much, I can't go on; looking around at one time, seeing a circle and getting it was the lower circle of ceremony and saying oh this is enough; and yet I kept on going- all alone.  I likened the hike up the mountain to the ascension of the soul- walking through everyday life, having experiences and learning, relationships- it was potent to hear and feel the stories.  I got to the top and experienced the merging of land, lake and sky- what I called heaven!  Sitting there so grateful for me and my dedication and persistence.
Then it was time to come down the mountain- bringing heaven on earth back into the physical- as I came down the mountain once again, I heard and experienced everything multi-dimensionally- I was not too sure- footed coming down and kept hearing stay low to the ground; I came down much quicker than I had gone up; and landing back at the beginning of the hike, I felt such a sense of accomplishment- I did it and I did it alone- it is the walk of souverignty- each of us is to do it on our own- it is where we are now!  Thank us!
Today I witnessed another's flock of freedom- the final disentanglement- I sit here and write and feel my heart open to each of us who have started, stopped to take a rest, or completed the hike...
Life is happening- the shift is here- we are ascending- each time we choose in love, each time we stay present, each time we energetically stay present in our own strength no matter what is going on outside of us, each time we let go of an old pattern or story, each time we accept and trust.
Love,
Lynn

The Shift

Good morning from sunny Mexico!!!  I awake this morning after a dream of saying a final, loving goodbye to the person in my life that represents the Hero; in life, he saw me before I saw myself and encouraged me and loved me and always was the voice of reason asking the "hard" questions.  I receive the message that it is time to become my own Hero.  I also get that I don't know the how of that so I ask for help from my Higher Self to keep showing me!
There is something that is coming together for me this morning as I read a post by Carolyn Myss about the recent earthquake in Japan- she speaks of the simple truth that we are connected to the earth and all life.  Yesterday the woman I am sharing a place with and I had a conversation about life- I am experiencing a connection to all life- no matter what age or whether life has two legs or four legs or any legs- maybe life has roots or wings.  I asked the question- is any life better or more important than another and can I be with all life in simple acceptance- that seems to be what is up for me as I navigate through a country and a culture that is unfamiliar.  Carolyn said that life is out of balance and that is what is happening on the earth right now- I can see that in my own life- the out of balance- going from unconscious consumer of all resources to conscious and choosing lack consumer of resources; going from looking for the answers outside of myself to finding them within; going from passive surrender to active surrender; - I am finding my balance as well.  The balance for me is to create richness all my experiences.
Part of the balance is saying no to my mind- which has run the show for oh so long.  Last night after an expansive weekend- my mind began to chatter- oh nothing has changed, you are still the same person......
So I chose to sit down and meditate and write about what has happened since I came here a week and a half ago- the world has shifted!  The earth shifted and so did I - no surprise there if I step past what the forgetting mind was trying to tell me and allowed the truth to come up.
-  I experience no past and the gift of staying present more and more
-  I had money stolen and received the gift of looking deeply into all the stories about money that I was living with
-  I have reclaimed creativity in the kitchen
-  I am living with a woman with whom I share authentically the quiet and the conversation
-  I co-created two times of Being with three other people where a different field was created and I stepped into that- one of the awareness I had was that I still carried the "holding" of the planet and again I do not know how to be with that so I ask my Higher Self for assistance
-  I created unexpected money coming in and a possible flow in service
-  I experienced a group call that opens up worlds in possibilities
-  I created the experience of a sweat lodge
-  I experienced a drumming group on the boardwalk during full moon that met all my creations- outdoors, children, older people, dancing, voice....

I acknowledge the shifting and balancing that I am doing and Being along with the Great Mother....  And I acknowledge thatn the shifts do not have show themselves on the outer to be real!!!
Love,
Lynn

I'm off...

This will be a quick one- I'm off - well we know that... but I have left physically.  Sitting in a lovely hotel room in Laredo Texas with my new friend....
A little off center at the LaCrosse airport- baggage costs alot- $60 as opposed to what I thought was $50 and then they wanted to charge another $90 because my one bag weighed over 50 pounds; personally I thought it was amazing that I got my whole life into two suitcase and a carry on- Delta didn't agree.  So because I believe in traveling light and I also want to watch where the money goes- after a moment of shakiness, I chose strongly to open the overweight suitcase and take out two pairs of shoes, a sweatshirt, my jean jacket, a beach towel and left them at the airport- also left my winter coat because right now I don't need it and I wasn't going to carry all of that.  The lady behind the counter was surprised and allowed me the bag through over 50- I think just to get rid of me.
OK- onto the plane- effortless flight, effortless transfer in Minneapolis with no wait time.  Big plane going to Austin so I got all three seats to myself and as we were coming into Austin- the cloud beings waved and shouted welcome to me.
Now that I am sitting and writing I guess the price of the bags was worth it, because they were the first two out of the claim area- I walked outside and without a cell phone, my friend Nancy pulled up and we took off- again- effortless.
Besides some engaging conversation, the other excitement for the night was dinner- Texas BBQ and some of the best creamed corn I have ever tasted....
We are off early in the am so i will sign off now-more to come...
Love,
Lynn

Traveling "Light"

Well now it is down to one day before I depart for Mexico... this morning I completed packing the big bag I am taking and put it in the trunk of the car- only because we got trapped in last night due to the mud and the big ruts on the road- so if we were able to move the car this morning after the freeze overnight, I wanted that big bag in there so I wouldn't have to lug it up the 1/2 mile hill!  So I came here with a Corolla full and I am leaving here with one large and one small suitcase- which better suits what it looks like may happen for me traveling around for awhile with no real settling down.  Going and getting immersed in the community that is next and then going on to the next.
Traveling "light"- not only on the outer, but I am carrying less baggage on the inner- letting go, letting go- reclaiming, remembering, integrating.  I have my life for the first time... ever!
This week's theme seems to be remembering that I am here to steward everything- nothing is mine!  Letting go of the need to own a house; the money  isn't mine- it is here to care for me and just flow through; the tools I require to live abundantly are not mine- they are there to use and share sometimes and let go of; whatever service I provide to the planet at this time is something that comes through me, not from me; even relationships are not mine- but to dive into, learn from, have fun with and sometimes let go of.  Traveling "light".
These last few days have been so sweet and so full- today I served a family by being with the children all day.  I got to experience a 9 year old having fun with energy and movement through him when he injured himself and agreed to an exercise I use on myself- I witnessed his feeling of the shift in his body.  It was such fun!!!  Nothing from me but the offer and the witness- no sloggy holding space or shifting energy for someone.  Traveling "light" does not mean traveling small!  What a gift for me and what a gift for him...

I also wanted to share another blog from a woman I respect who speaks about traveling right now:

Surfing the Tsunami

Lucia Rene

For many people, things feel really churned up right now.  A surprising number of people report that someone in their family is dying and the issue of death always causes a lot of haywire emotions to surface.  Some are feeling that they are on a processing roller coaster.  Others, however, are reporting ecstasy and exhilaration.  Where on the spectrum are you?

Mother Divine’s tsunami of change, which has been building for a while, has definitely crested.  No question about that.  Things are churned up.  Things are accelerating.  Life has become increasingly challenging.  And we are only just beginning this year of accelerated change!  It isn't just you or changes in your area of the world.  This is global. Things are churned up everywhere!
If your boat feels like it’s in danger of capsizing, perhaps you need to put on your inspector’s cap and give it a good once over.  (1) Are there too many people on board?  (2) Are you carrying excess baggage?  (3) Are you assuming the chatter on your shortwave radio is your own?
Here are some recommendations for your consideration:
(1)  Make a list of all the people in your life and, in a detached way, scrutinize the energy of each.  Is the person adding to your life?  Detracting?  Are you, because you have a tie to them, psychically picking up their inner turmoil?  If someone isn’t on the same wavelength, perhaps it’s time to part company.
To be perfectly honest, it’s a problem if anyone is in your boat (i.e. awareness field) right now.  Everyone should have her/his own boat.  We are all responsible for ourselves.  We need to be free to make our own choices, change direction, steer clear of obstacles.  Other people in your boat make it heavy and hard to maneuver.
(2)  Scrutinize your baggage.  Your baggage—emotional, mental, or psychic—may be what’s making your boat unstable.  Are you still trying to control things?  Are you hanging on to an old belief system that doesn’t serve you anymore?  Are you feeling resistant to look at a process that’s up in your face?
More often than not, the problem confronting you—what your mind perceives as the problem—is not the immediate problem.  The real problem is your resistance to dealing with the problem.  Once you overcome your resistance, you can begin to move down through the layers of emotions that compose your problem, one by one, until you reach the fear that underlies them.  And once you merge with the fear, it dissolves into the pure light of consciousness.Emotions are just vibrations within the emotional body.  None of them can harm you.  But the mind says, “This problem is so cataclysmic that you’ll die if you go into it”.  And we believe the mind.  We resist diving into the process.
My method is to acknowledge and meet the resistance, to tell it, “This resistance is welcome here”.  If resistance is what is up in your face, welcome the resistance, then begin to welcome the layers of the process as they reveal themselves.  Anything that is really seen, acknowledged, and honored comes to rest quite easily.

Buddha said: Life is suffering and suffering is caused by attachment.  So, if you’re suffering, investigate and work through your attachments to people.  Meet and honor your attachments to your baggage.
Only you can do your processing work.  Someone can teach, advise, and/or support you.  But you have to do the work.  It is messy down there in the depths of the emotional swamp.  I know.  I’ve been there countless times.  Not savory.  But, once you decide to plunge in, it’s very, very doable.
Come on.  Confess.  You love the feeling of freedom that comes when you drop a piece of excess baggage or a person who is draining your energy.  So, buck up; inspect your boat; lighten it up.
Or, better yet, trade it in for a surfboard!  Just you, your bathing suit, and the Divine Mother’s tsunami of change.  Too little security in a surfboard?  Better get used to it.  We’ll be swimming like dolphins before it’s all over!
You’re perfectly capable of surfing the tsunami, you know.  You wouldn’t have chosen to be here at the end of a cycle of time if you weren’t geared for high-speed change.
http://www.unplugfromthepatriarchy.com

The Way It Is....

If you have come to help me, you are wasting your time. But if you have come because your liberation is bound up with mine, then let us work together. -Lila Watson

I received this tonight and wanted to share it- it is what I have evolved to in seeking friends, co-creators, teachers and how I wish to serve...

It is how I see myself and how I see you- sovereign Beings!

Love,

Lynn

Woooowwwww!

I knew today was going to be an interesting day when I got out of the shower and looked in the mirror that was steamed up and saw two lights where my eyes normally are- I kept staring and widening back and the lights remained staring back at me!!  A little ETish... no fear, just  a wow!
When I opened up my computer a message from my dear friend in Mexico jumped out at me and I mean jumped out- time stood still and I was present to all my feelings at the same time and some deeper meaning crept into my awareness-it was a music video with the words- we are leaving, everything is okay.... The message I got was that she was leaving and since I am looking forward to seeing her in the flesh, one of the experiences I had was disappointment.  And I also experienced fear, sadness and some awareness that if I am truly going to be free one of the learnings is can I be peaceful with being alone- I am feeling the power of creation right now and my question to myself while all this was happening in less than a minute- is can I trust myself?
While I was experiencing this, another friend chatted me up and what became apparent is that the three of us (so that probably means everyone) are at a choice point on many levels-where we are feels very familiar and this was echoed by my friend and I know I am being called to respond differently than ever before.
I am working with someone right now as Teacher and my session with him was right after all this happened- as I sat and spoke, rubbing my thighs (my thighs carry messages of what needs to be let go ) I was traveling in many dimensions and he could feel it.  One of the pieces of work I am exploring is this portal that is attached to my root chakra and seems to travel  back to the point of separation- as I allowed words out what came up is that this is all somehow linked to that point of separation- not sure what that means, know the vibration is true.  Tomorrow's work may reveal more of this.
What he observed and he has known me for a long time is that when some awareness like this has happened in the past I would crumble and I didn't- he could feel all the emotions as I could and I didn't let them rule me- I felt so wide that I held all the emotions, all the awareness, all the learnings and more- the more that didn't have words.  And I didn't even need him to speak those words- I could feel all of that and more- maybe this is what happens when consciousness shifts?
This was my experience of the morning- after that my little three year old friend asked me to watch a new Thomas the Train movie with him- we snuggled and ate popcorn and then I went outside and played in the snow!
Right now in this moment, I am feeling clear and strong and I have a deep desire to have a glass of wine and some chocolate....yummy.... and there is more to the day... have the desire right now to write before I head into town for a meeting.
Love,
Lynn