Flock of Freedom: Owning it all

Flock of Freedom: Owning it all: What a few weeks!!!! I met this most amazing woman in a magical way who is a Buddhist nun- we had an immediate connection- she c...

Owning it all

What a few weeks!!!!

I met this most amazing woman in a magical way who is a Buddhist nun- we had an immediate connection- she crying because I reminded her of someone and I because she shared her vision of a new monastic order and a community vision- Community is what I have been experiencing and embodying over the last few years and it always feels wonderful to meet another who isn't attached to a certain model and is willing to explore in a powerful, sovereign way..

And as it always seems to transpire I got to step up against a growing edge as we talked; when I was told by my new friend that I am as close to a nun as she has met, I was thrown for a loop; wow I had always thought of myself as a natural, sensual woman and yes I have lived a simple life as far as stuff and intimate relationship over the last few years; so why was I so upset over being called a nun?  The first reaction has to do with the history of being taught by nuns my whole life ( that got let go quickly) and the other piece I got was that once again,  I was looking to someone else for definitions and knowledge- after many days of sitting with this statement, I fully accept my ‘nunhood”- the me that has made my relationship with God and the Divine as the most important thing in my life- above intimate relationship with a man/woman/things.  So no I have not taken strict vows and don’t intend to- because for me that feels too rigid- this is what I am :

I am conscious relationship

I am simplicity

I am compassionate service

I am sovereign

I am God

I am present

I am a carer and I am Self care

I am an invitation to play in this new way

I am a reconnection to the earth, other people and the rest of the universe

I am clarity

I am an opening to what’s next

I am abundance and richness

I am owning and loving all parts of me

I am love

I am free

As I accept who I am, I can now begin to see the threads of what is coming together:

As I accept I am a carer and look at how I do that- in all of the other vibrations, I can see others who want to play can join this community and we can serve together- we can be carers of the women who think they are dying- physically, mentally, spiritually and emotionally.  We can provide service with presence and love and receive cash, housing, food- we receive exactly what we require.  We provide service in a way that aligns with everyone being whole and complete- everyone getting what he or she needs.

I accept and see the thread of the group called Circles that the nun invited me to join- small group work-witnessing and supporting people who are desiring to leave behind poverty and what that all means...

I accept the feel of all I have to do is be out with as many people as possible- I carry the monastic order and am creating community as I walk about Being all the things that I am discovering.  I feel that as I attend social events and look for work.

I accept the gift of being able to stay in the house where I cared for the woman I was employed by as a landing of inviting people in- my friend to cook for; others to spend the night when they don't have a place to stay- this is the landing of the physical of what I have seen and desired.

I accept community that is forming as there has been a few nights of meditation here at the house while I have been here alone; the other night I saw such beautiful amazing lights- asking and hearing the message at the same time- important for you to see and remember the real beauty.  Then I saw Donna ( the woman I cared for)  and my mother- such a warm bright light formed all around us like we sitting in the middle of a flame…  Feeling so protected and held- remember this one dear one…  Bright yellow diamond light- all around…  I said out loud- We are so cared for!

During the meditation, I ended up in the open space that a friend  had spoken of the other day ( the space of having let go of the old and on the other side is a blank space) and was asked what we should have it look like- what to experience?  First I chose no time and I brought that back in this experience and had some fun with that- things showing up suddenly like a lot of money that wasn’t there a minute ago- next was each Being really seeing each other- bringing that back into this experience and people were losing their minds,,,yeah! Running down the streets screaming. Then we decided to play with no form and when we brought that back to this experience to play with- guess what?  There was no hunger, no homelessness, none of the fears associated with these- as I write this I get the message of this – it is the experience of the illusion. Smile….

Wah and a song that played at the last retreat I was on- really listening to the words- all my love, I have gone so beyond; landing that I am God and my life is my ministry- then communicating with a friend on FB about the holiday and how grateful I am to witness her flight of freedom- she shared that I had helped model who to be with her kids when I cared for them and how helpful it is to see me live and enjoy the experience.

This all coming together in a single aligned instant of recognition- owning it all- I am!

Love,

Lynn