Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Flock of Freedom: New Beginnings
Flock of Freedom: New Beginnings: I am sitting at a local coffee shop, expanding and breathing back into center- so much shifting, so much changing. I can look outside and s...
New Beginnings
I am sitting at a local coffee shop, expanding and breathing back into center- so much shifting, so much changing. I can look outside and see things shifting but what feels important on this day is to land the inner shifts. That is why I write- to land the learning in the physical for me and then I share knowing it will resonate with another.
I feel bigger and larger than I ever have in my life- I feel my body and I am more than that! I hear the words- "stretching the boundary within"- "my soul is no longer lingering in the far reaches."
I am experiencing issues, thoughts, feelings, judgments coming up that aren't consistent with this feeling and there is something different with these experiences- I see them, I feel them and they don't stay. I seem to be experiencing them fully in the moment. That means I do recognize them, I feel the feeling that is associated and I do not act on them or let them stay around and run my life. Most of them reflect the deep wound of I am not enough! And I see clearly how I have allowed those to run my life- this is seen with no regret, with no sadness- but with an amazement!
An example of this is the awareness I had the other day, that in the past when I was trying something different like an offer, an event- if I didn't receive the expected outcome (number of clients, cash) in the time I felt was appropriate, I stopped with all kinds of stories around the why- mostly outside of me. Blaming others for not helping, for not being evolved enough, for not getting me--- today, I feel deeply that it is all about me and my vibration. And that there is nothing wrong with what is happening- keeping my eye on the prize I keep lifting the next veil, looking at the next thought and judgment- trusting I am getting it, I am Being it, I am doing it! The it being growing, evolving, shifting into the Divine Being I am!
And when I get home I am gifted with a reminder about this offer and this time- to get very specific about the timing, the feel of accepting new clients, the visioning of speaking with clients on the phone - and I remember the gift of a message a week ago from my Higher Self- to get clear about what I want!
According to my journal that I am now keeping, on the 23rd of May I saw and felt fully a belief I held that I can't create until I complete- another separation healed. I gifted this same day with an experience of my heart's desire - to experience in this body who I am- God- accept and own my power- and each day be in service to the other.
And so each day I feel a completion and in that, the space of creation opening....in that each day I feel more of me on board and a desire to show up even stronger in that- clearer in conversations, boundaries, actions. I am walking that out in this life.
I am feeling the holiness of I am the One- and that is felt with the humility that we are all the One. As I pray, I feel the prayer for all of us, as I shift I feel the shift for all of us.. I feel gratitude for those of you who are shifting as well- I feel the gift that is for me!
On the 25th, I feel and remember the anointing I have had in the arms and hands of others- those I have called teacher, guide- I can actually feel their touch and I accept what that means to me- a stepping forth in my anointing others.
I am experiencing something around the feminine on a deeper level- listening to I Remember Union- the folding in of the story of Mary Magdalene and Jesus in my own story- seeing it playing out in my own life- grounding it into the earth. That looks like the balance of receiving and nurturing with action each day; that looks like witnessing the "hatred" of woman at a wedding the other day and feeling and saying- I am sorry- feeling the healing of generations. That manifests in the true seeing of what is being offered by the man online and calling him up to something else-as I call my own masculine up to something else. Knowing the whole time, it is all perfect!
So the new beginnings is knowing on a level I have never known that I do create my world, that I am responsible for that, that I can change it in an instant, that I am whole and complete with all parts coming together in love, that I am here to experience all of life and there is really nothing wrong. The new beginnings is a deep understanding that it is all an inside job. The new beginnings is the journey home. I feel I have crossed some street, some intersection where nothing will ever be the same and I am OK with not really knowing what that means. I trust, I awaken each day and rejoice and re-choice- I am happy, I am healthy, I am rich, I am wise, I am human and I am God!
I so Love Us!!!
Lynn
I feel bigger and larger than I ever have in my life- I feel my body and I am more than that! I hear the words- "stretching the boundary within"- "my soul is no longer lingering in the far reaches."
I am experiencing issues, thoughts, feelings, judgments coming up that aren't consistent with this feeling and there is something different with these experiences- I see them, I feel them and they don't stay. I seem to be experiencing them fully in the moment. That means I do recognize them, I feel the feeling that is associated and I do not act on them or let them stay around and run my life. Most of them reflect the deep wound of I am not enough! And I see clearly how I have allowed those to run my life- this is seen with no regret, with no sadness- but with an amazement!
An example of this is the awareness I had the other day, that in the past when I was trying something different like an offer, an event- if I didn't receive the expected outcome (number of clients, cash) in the time I felt was appropriate, I stopped with all kinds of stories around the why- mostly outside of me. Blaming others for not helping, for not being evolved enough, for not getting me--- today, I feel deeply that it is all about me and my vibration. And that there is nothing wrong with what is happening- keeping my eye on the prize I keep lifting the next veil, looking at the next thought and judgment- trusting I am getting it, I am Being it, I am doing it! The it being growing, evolving, shifting into the Divine Being I am!
And when I get home I am gifted with a reminder about this offer and this time- to get very specific about the timing, the feel of accepting new clients, the visioning of speaking with clients on the phone - and I remember the gift of a message a week ago from my Higher Self- to get clear about what I want!
According to my journal that I am now keeping, on the 23rd of May I saw and felt fully a belief I held that I can't create until I complete- another separation healed. I gifted this same day with an experience of my heart's desire - to experience in this body who I am- God- accept and own my power- and each day be in service to the other.
And so each day I feel a completion and in that, the space of creation opening....in that each day I feel more of me on board and a desire to show up even stronger in that- clearer in conversations, boundaries, actions. I am walking that out in this life.
I am feeling the holiness of I am the One- and that is felt with the humility that we are all the One. As I pray, I feel the prayer for all of us, as I shift I feel the shift for all of us.. I feel gratitude for those of you who are shifting as well- I feel the gift that is for me!
On the 25th, I feel and remember the anointing I have had in the arms and hands of others- those I have called teacher, guide- I can actually feel their touch and I accept what that means to me- a stepping forth in my anointing others.
I am experiencing something around the feminine on a deeper level- listening to I Remember Union- the folding in of the story of Mary Magdalene and Jesus in my own story- seeing it playing out in my own life- grounding it into the earth. That looks like the balance of receiving and nurturing with action each day; that looks like witnessing the "hatred" of woman at a wedding the other day and feeling and saying- I am sorry- feeling the healing of generations. That manifests in the true seeing of what is being offered by the man online and calling him up to something else-as I call my own masculine up to something else. Knowing the whole time, it is all perfect!
I step outside to pray and feel such wholeness…my breast touches the computer screen and what begins to play is The Light of my Calling from Mary Magdalene- speaking about the realization of the light in every pore as she walks in the world what happens- I am in the world! That is what I wanted- during the sitting outside I kept remembering the feeling of Being the anointed one…and as I said the prayer remembering all the spells, agreements were to not remember- I remember!!! Wanting to share with everyone and knowing that it is time to stay with it today….
Thursday, May 24, 2012
Flock of Freedom: What Does It Mean to Be Free?
Flock of Freedom: What Does It Mean to Be Free?: OMG- it has been quite the 5 months for this one- having not written except in a journal for my own use over this time; having gotten a job ...
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
What Does It Mean to Be Free?
OMG- it has been quite the 5 months for this one- having not written except in a journal for my own use over this time; having gotten a job in December and now as of a week ago resigned; having lived with a friend of mine on the couch for most of this time- except when I created housesitting gigs; having entered into the world again- after so many months on the road and staying pretty close to whatever home I was in and with whom that home was made....
Returning full circle and humbly bowing to another level of healing most of which I can only feel at this point! I was explaining to a friend the other day that my way of experiencing and learning is to embody the vision, the meditation and then walk it out in this reality! So with the strong message to be around as many people as possible- in a job 5 days a week- going to the grocery- riding the bus- trying on new experiences- I got to fully engage my anger, my judgment, my spiritual snobbery, my fear, my stories of I am not enough at yet another level of mastery and healing! There really is too much to write and some of which the particulars I have already let go of!
Let it be said that when I looked in the mirror a month ago, I saw a woman who had aged and was once again hunched over protecting her heart! I know this woman- she is me! And I have seen glimpses of another woman and that is the woman I want to see again- the woman who skips down the street, smiles all the time and goes to the grocery in her jammies!
So as always, a teacher showed up and I said Yes! This is the first time I said yes without expecting the teacher to tell me what to do, to save me, to take care of me- now that is progress!!!! And two weeks ago, another level of "I want someone to take care of me", came up to say hello and ask for love!
This teacher is a coach to create an offer from my soul purpose- something my soul has been crying out for years! So grateful to me for saying yes.... grateful to Alaya Gold for showing up in her purpose!
And yes I am creating an offer- beginning with an event here in Cincinnati before I leave town (new beginnings all around- as I am traveling by train to Pennsylvania to house sit for friends from June to September)- the Naughty and Nice Goddess Feast! And also an offer to meet some personal clients!
What I really wanted to get down on paper this day is the answers I have so far to a question I got curious about when I read Lauren Gorgo's most recent post- "What does it mean to be free- to live limitless?"
I began the inquiry during a shamanic heart mediation and saw a chance to be even more free by breathing into the back of my heart and then the whole body and into every cell.
That same morning I read this prayer Alaya gave me- "I am enough" and felt the line-"the projects with which I am involved wow my soul"- I cry- freedom here in the moment seeing what I always put my energy into- something to fix, to change- freedom came then as I felt the potency in me just Being- trusting I will say or do whatever is perfect- knowing that nothing or no one is wrong- seeing the perfection in me and all!
Freedom is the awareness that I will continue to expand, learn, love accept, create and receive.
Freedom is the opening to feeling what creates fun, adventure and joy and choosing that!
Freedom is accepting and receiving a love of cash- I love cash and cash loves me!
Freedom is the re-creation of an aligned spine so that I can fully feel the energy of creation pulsing through and around me- having shut that down for so many years- opening up to this energy- enjoying and having fun with it!
Freedoms is taking full responsibility for myself in all aspects of life- physical, spiritual, mental and emotional.
Freedom is feeling my body again.
Freedom is Being me in every moment and allowing that to expand; inviting the veils to be lifted- loving all of me; all is well.
Returning full circle and humbly bowing to another level of healing most of which I can only feel at this point! I was explaining to a friend the other day that my way of experiencing and learning is to embody the vision, the meditation and then walk it out in this reality! So with the strong message to be around as many people as possible- in a job 5 days a week- going to the grocery- riding the bus- trying on new experiences- I got to fully engage my anger, my judgment, my spiritual snobbery, my fear, my stories of I am not enough at yet another level of mastery and healing! There really is too much to write and some of which the particulars I have already let go of!
Let it be said that when I looked in the mirror a month ago, I saw a woman who had aged and was once again hunched over protecting her heart! I know this woman- she is me! And I have seen glimpses of another woman and that is the woman I want to see again- the woman who skips down the street, smiles all the time and goes to the grocery in her jammies!
So as always, a teacher showed up and I said Yes! This is the first time I said yes without expecting the teacher to tell me what to do, to save me, to take care of me- now that is progress!!!! And two weeks ago, another level of "I want someone to take care of me", came up to say hello and ask for love!
This teacher is a coach to create an offer from my soul purpose- something my soul has been crying out for years! So grateful to me for saying yes.... grateful to Alaya Gold for showing up in her purpose!
And yes I am creating an offer- beginning with an event here in Cincinnati before I leave town (new beginnings all around- as I am traveling by train to Pennsylvania to house sit for friends from June to September)- the Naughty and Nice Goddess Feast! And also an offer to meet some personal clients!
What I really wanted to get down on paper this day is the answers I have so far to a question I got curious about when I read Lauren Gorgo's most recent post- "What does it mean to be free- to live limitless?"
I began the inquiry during a shamanic heart mediation and saw a chance to be even more free by breathing into the back of my heart and then the whole body and into every cell.
That same morning I read this prayer Alaya gave me- "I am enough" and felt the line-"the projects with which I am involved wow my soul"- I cry- freedom here in the moment seeing what I always put my energy into- something to fix, to change- freedom came then as I felt the potency in me just Being- trusting I will say or do whatever is perfect- knowing that nothing or no one is wrong- seeing the perfection in me and all!
Freedom is the awareness that I will continue to expand, learn, love accept, create and receive.
Freedom is the opening to feeling what creates fun, adventure and joy and choosing that!
Freedom is accepting and receiving a love of cash- I love cash and cash loves me!
Freedom is the re-creation of an aligned spine so that I can fully feel the energy of creation pulsing through and around me- having shut that down for so many years- opening up to this energy- enjoying and having fun with it!
Freedoms is taking full responsibility for myself in all aspects of life- physical, spiritual, mental and emotional.
Freedom is feeling my body again.
Freedom is Being me in every moment and allowing that to expand; inviting the veils to be lifted- loving all of me; all is well.
· Freedom is feeling the and seeing the thoughts
that have always been present- I am not enough, I am not worthy and not
allowing them to grab hold and stay- no longer creating the same old thing.
· Freedom is accepting what all I have healed,
transmuted- honoring myself and trusting that anything else will come up and I
will step into it and allow for that to be transmuted as well.- accepting the
work is never done.
·
· Freedom is the continued awareness that I have
created everything and what I mean by that is that today 5/22/12 I feel the
creation of I am not enough- the program
with which I have run my whole life as something I created- there is a thread
here that I am on…. and it is time to create I am enough and expect that it will turn out well!
I Love Us!
Lynn
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