Flock of Freedom: Being

Flock of Freedom: Being: Again so enjoying the laying in bed- not sleeping- although allowing for the dosing off because of waking up early. This mornin...

Being

Again so enjoying the laying in bed- not sleeping- although allowing for the dosing off because of waking up early.  This morning I put on Ashana and I journeyed- meaning I went out into another realm- the realm of God- and I brought it all back in- back in to this experience in the body- feeling the drop of the tear as I listened to Opening to love- experiencing an opening not before experienced over a length of time- knowing it is always here.  Breathing on many levels as I listen to You are my Breath- surrendering as I listen to Only you in my heart and Deep Peace.

I am Home; I am Safe; I am here to be in service to the Divine within us all and as I am in service this day to the Divine within I am in service to all.

I lay in bed and enjoy the experience of blowing my nose and the flow of air that comes with that; I enjoy the numbness of the right arm and the tingling of awakening; I enjoy the languishing in the bed with the covers – I remember another time when the message was “it’s all about the poop”- meaning when I can poop or manage another’s poop with reverence and grace- the world has shifted and yes my world will have shifted!

So we shall see- I enjoy the grinding of the coffee beans the water coming out of the faucet and yes that is magic!  I am enjoying the first cup of coffee with cream- cream whipped lovingly the other night by the hands of a brother!  Perhaps before I complete this I will experience nirvana in the toilet!

I hear a knock (psychic knock) and know it is time to get out of bed- hearing strong message to stay in today and Be (that to me means to be present to it all-anything that shows up in the outer world and anything that shows up in the inner world)- knowing I will reschedule an appointment I have with another opening heart- the phone rings right as I get out of the bedroom and it is her wishing to reschedule as well- again what has been created is a deep connection with another who is living in her own creations and creating in harmony!

Now I am in deep bowing to the gift of the computer- the Internet- so quickly I can allow words to flow through; deep bowing to the magic of the fire that is coming through in the furnace on this slightly chilled morning.

I am in deep bow to the journey within today and the gift it will be to others as I show up differently- there are some tasks today and I can feel myself doing them with fun and joy and grace- cleaning the bathroom and changing the sheets for another guest in the house- as the family gathers to be with Donna on her body’s journey out of this world.  The packing of some belongings so I can move in next door for a bit- sweet offer of the neighbor and friend of Donna- she has also asked me to share a meal with her tonight- can feel the energetic gift this is to her as well!

I sit in quiet and reverence for other gifts to be allowed in today- all my dreams and visions are coming true!

With deep love and peace,

Lynn

Big energy!!!

One of the reasons I feel like the energy is so big right now that last night I had a headache for the first time in months- it was so intense that I actually took something for it- all I wanted to do was sleep and watch TV- so thank God it was Grey's Anatomy night!!!!

Feels like a significant day energy wise- the second day in a row of allowing the laying in bed and feeling and letting go and allowing it all.  I read last night that today was a day when we had total access to the Central Sun- when I felt that this morning it felt like total access to all parts of me- I felt strong, I felt all the possibilities, I felt like I was inviting people in, I felt like even though I could feel others in co-creation that I didn’t need them.  I read that today would be a great day to land all the dreams and wishes so I felt those differently than I have before- the difference was there was no need there was just this vibration of joy and welcoming:

·     I feel home being right here- meaning in me and I could feel the outer manifestation of home – me standing at the door inviting others in to eat, drink and be merry- no one else has to be there for this to be created- final letting go of this having to look like it is with one certain person or a certain neighborhood or a certain place.  This home is so rich and welcoming and loving- it is luxurious in that it holds.  Interesting enough this same space was felt the other night when I had friends over to Donna’s house- now that her being is not here my energy has filled all the space- as I write this I remember the space is where everything gets created.

·     I feel landing a space to call home and being out in the community as much as possible to touch as many as possible- I could feel small groups of play- dance, Latihan- all of this with no requirement as to the who or the what.

·     I feel related to all this the full support of cash, food- anything this Being requires to play in balance- with no attachment to how this shows up- there is a dear friend and sistar who has been supporting and witnessing me on this particular piece of the journey and I had shared with her that with whatever gets created I will share 10%- I felt the joy in writing her a big check for $10,000.  Don’t know the how- but the when is now!!!  In fact because I wrote this, I got up and wrote a check for $10,000.

·     Most nights I wake up and see lights flying all around me- this morning as I felt my breath inhaling all of me back in I saw the lights in me and around the body- especially the hands.

My desire is to do more work in small groups and today I am off to the small group I found here in Boulder- it is called Dreamweavers.  It is testimony to the power of small groups- my first visit I had a lot of judgment and stories around how I didn’t fit in- I know enough to ask to be shown what the judgment and stories are about and I saw everyone was mirroring for me the parts that I wasn’t accepting- being so arrogant about my walk and work.  I kept checking in and getting a yes to go back- with this group and my presence the energy created has allowed the opportunity for what’s next in living situation and work!!!  It has allowed for an opening with another member of the group to co-create dance here in Boulder; a Thanksgiving celebration and possible some other things.  It has allowed me to land Latihan here in Boulder with no attachment to my dear brother who I thought would co-create with me being there.  And all of this with no attachment to if it goes away tomorrow!

And so with no knowledge in the moment of what’s next with where I am to live or how I am to support myself, I relax into all is well right now in this moment!  I have a wonderful safe space to sleep and work, I have food and I have the group to go to today and bus fare to get there- more than anything , I have me..

With love to me and from me,

Lynn

New waves of I am

I was asked the other day by a dear friend for what purpose do I write- I write because when I do something opens up and I get even more information- more feeling about what is up in the moment.

For years I have read, heard many spiritual principles- for me what seems to be happening is the actual experience in the body, in the feelings, and actual manifestation and synchronicity in the outer world.

So today I woke up and had my experience and chose to sit and write first off- then I open up the Tut note and Rev Angela's note that I receive each morning- each one building on what I am experiencing- building the trust muscle even more!

On this very quiet, peaceful morning I lay in bed for a long time- feeling warm, safe- thinking a lot about last night and my reaction to the sexual talk and energy between two friends – I definitely had a charge and there was definitely some untapped, unmet need there- as I write this I accept this in me- I love this in me.  What I noticed this morning was a desire to go to back-ups- other Beings that I share a connection with to check things out- figure things out; and I loved and accepted that too.  Remembering and feeling and experiencing that all the answers are right here- I do not have to go anywhere else- writing this is allowing me to really feel this- this being that I am all of this- I am the untapped, unmet sexual energy; I am the reaction to it; I am how it played out between the two friends; I am the desire to check everything out with others; I am all the thoughts around this- and with this I have peace.  Thank you to all who are in service by just showing up and Being you; thank you to Me.  I can hold it all it appears.

What I also experienced as I continued to breathe deeply and relax into all of this is all that I am- feeling as many cells as I could lighting up- I am that; feeling home- I am that; feeling abundance and richness- I am that; feeling safe- I am that; feeling unsure of the how and the where- I am that; feeling the power of love- I am that; feeling Being in service- I am that; feeling vibrant health- I am that; feeling Being alone- I am that; feeling community and family- I am that- while I was feeling all of this looking back over the past few moments and seeing how quickly the I am are being seen in the physical world.

The asking of what’s next over the last few weeks and the letting go of what that may look like and the shifts that are occurring in the physical world.

I did read something somewhere last night that one of the experiences to be had is to feel the universe within; to feel the creation of universe- I am getting a sense of what that may feel like- it is a tingle and I allow for all my dreams and visions to come true- work that I enjoy; Being in service and living with the vibe tribe.

And I might add that I am so choosing the easy button on what’s next!  

Love to Us,

Lynn

Leadership Consciousness

This has been written over the last two days beginning Tuesday the 25th and I have to say it feels like it has been longer than that- could today be Wednesday?

I picked the Moses card last night as I was sitting with a very strong desire, wish to shift  the stories holding us- to allow for heaven on earth- to vibrate only that which is love- Moses is about leadership and about taking action- I can feel it is action inspired by Spirit- great things were done in strong intention by Moses- the parting of the Red Sea- as I write this I remember the message of the bee during circle meditation- the bee is so heavy and yet is able to keep in flight somehow- strong intention no matter what.  That was one of the gifts given to me recently as a sign.

And again this morning I open up Rev Angela’s post to find a reference to Moses- the leadership consciousness.  I open up to allow this in this morning and as soon as I did- I was shown the judgment that Donna (Donna is the woman I care for in exchange for room and board) had about me getting up at 6:45 by her statement that she makes almost every morning of her having  to get me up- all in a swoosh I got a hit to dive in- state the judgment I felt behind the statement and open up to allow her to step into owning her feelings- exactly what I had been writing about the No Story Hour (another gift from the meditation of an offer to the world)- whooo…. It is happening, I am it- at the same millisecond I saw the story I had about her which made me not do this in the past- she has had a brain injury, she is older and not doing the work all of it…… and I remember what I strongly stated to Jason yesterday- I am here to vibrate for each Being to step into their power with no story around the who…… here we go….

So the beginning of the end of this story is that after we got back on track this morning I took Donna to her exercise class for the first time since her original accident- she was excited and nervous.  I dropped her and sat in the lobby feeling leadership in the information I put out about an offer here in Boulder of Latihan- when Donna came out of her class I could tell there was an issue- at first I thought she was emotional about this big first- she was quiet and teary….she said no to coffee with the girls which I understand is a tradition and she said no to King Soopers on the way home when she was so excited to get food to cook for her daughter coming over on Thursday- I noticed her looking around as we drove not really seeing and as I write this getting that she was seeing for the first time.  Wow- this is for why I write- I am getting such a beautiful download about my time with her yesterday and I must share it!  I am blessed with a piece of what  I bring  in this world to see things, people, situations in ways other do not- I am able to take journeys and see colors, shapes and patterns not of this world we walk around in- some people call it going through a veil.  As I write this and remember her in the car and at the hospital yesterday, I know she was experiencing all that- I was quiet for the most part- tender- acknowledging her fear- she kept looking at me in the hospital and I just witnessed her.

She got to see what truly is and I got to witness her – I knew she was a big soul for calling me in and I knew I was going to get a gift- I have gotten many- but oh wow!  This is potent- listening to Snatum Kaur singing guide my way home- Sat Nam.

Donna is in the hospital dying as I write this- she is leaving her body and her spirit is leaving differently- I honor this experience and ask to experience all of it 100%.

I AM HERE TO GUIDE THE WAY HOME!  Feeling that and the gift it is for me and any other- we are all on our way and right now this Being is leading by just Being.

What’s next Beautiful One!!!!

It is all within!!!!

I have just experienced a weekend with no energy tugging or pulling at me- how this looks on the outer is the house mate is gone- how it feels on the inside is a deeper connection to Me.  The house mate would not be gone without the other experience- I am getting that learning on a different level.

The sky is dark as I awaken after a deep sleep- listening to Ashana singing Deep Peace- this morning two feelings or memories arise- the feel of  looking at each Being in my life and each thing and each encounter as Being in service to me- that way I can touch the reverence of all….  I am also reminded that when I choose to leave, I am choosing to leave a certain consciousness, not necessarily a physical space although that may occur as well- when I don’t like what is happening on the outer- what is it that I can let go of within- to let go of what I no longer need in my life- to allow what I need to do- what I need to serve.

 I am fondly feeling the call- the call to leave the job, the house, the pets, the family, the friends, the town where I spent most of my life, the consciousness that this all represented.   The first stop physically was Wisconsin- I showed up and the gifts flowed- I am feeling and honoring my unique contribution to the scene and at the same time I receive the unique contribution that was offered by each Being-all of this brought in with a new energy, a new vibe there is no separation-Teacher------Student----Mother------Child-------Harmony------Community------Power------Reclaiming Lost Parts------Witnessing----Leaving in Love.

The next call heard was Mexico-----Stepping into Power no matter what was in the environment-----Community-------Authentic Sharing and the lifting of all-------Powerful Witness----Leaving in Love----Abundance, Richness all while Being in service----Self Care. 

And now here I am in Boulder having answered the call of the dear One---this morning feeling the power of Being here with the house mate- owning mySelf in this---the full realization of leaving the victim consciousness for good---while allowing others to choose for themselves---Sharing gifts----Union----the Power of Witnessing the story and the power of the story and the ease of the letting go----Reconnection to reverence----Creation----remembering I am here to invite in something different---Community!

With each experience I have, an invitation is made for all to join- how joy-filled when another soul accepts!  How joy-filled when I accept- although only the when is in question here and as I write this I get it is only a matter of "time" for all.

So grateful for the journey- so grateful for the choice- so grateful for What’s next????

All my love and invitation,

Lynn