New Beginnings

I am sitting at a local coffee shop, expanding and breathing back into center- so much shifting, so much changing.  I can look outside and see things shifting but what feels important on this day is to land the inner shifts.  That is why I write- to land the learning in the physical for me and then I share knowing it will resonate with another.


I feel bigger and larger than I ever have in my life- I feel my body and I am more than that!  I hear the words- "stretching the boundary within"- "my soul is no longer lingering in the far reaches."


I am experiencing issues, thoughts, feelings, judgments coming up that aren't consistent with this feeling and there is something different with these experiences- I see them, I feel them and they don't stay.  I seem to be experiencing them fully in the moment.  That means I do recognize them, I feel the feeling that is associated and I do not act on them or let them stay around and run my life.  Most of them reflect the deep wound of I am not enough!  And I see clearly how I have allowed those to run my life- this is seen with no regret, with no sadness- but with an amazement!
An example of this is the awareness I had the other day, that in the past when I was trying something different like an offer, an event- if I didn't receive the expected outcome (number of clients, cash) in the time I felt was appropriate, I stopped with all kinds of stories around the why- mostly outside of me.  Blaming others for not helping, for not being evolved enough, for not getting me--- today, I feel deeply that it is all about me and my vibration.  And that there is nothing wrong with what is happening- keeping my eye on the prize I keep lifting the next veil, looking at the next thought and judgment- trusting I am getting it, I am Being it, I am doing it!  The it being growing, evolving, shifting into the Divine Being I am!
And when I  get home I am gifted with a reminder about this offer and this time- to get very specific about the timing, the feel of accepting new clients, the visioning of speaking with clients on the phone - and I remember the gift of a message a week ago from my Higher Self- to get clear about what I want!


According to my journal that I am now keeping, on the 23rd of May I saw and felt fully a belief I held that I can't create until I complete- another separation healed.  I  gifted  this same day with an experience of my heart's desire - to experience in this body who I am- God- accept and own my power- and each day be in service to the other.
And so each day I feel a completion and in that, the space of creation opening....in that each day I feel more of me on board and a desire to show up even stronger in that- clearer in conversations, boundaries, actions.  I am walking that out in this life.


I am feeling the holiness of I am the One- and that is felt with the humility that we are all the One.  As I pray, I feel the prayer for all of us, as I shift I feel the shift for all of us.. I feel gratitude for those of you who are shifting as well- I feel the gift that is for me!


On the 25th, I feel and remember the anointing I have had in the arms and hands of others- those I have called teacher, guide- I can actually feel their touch and I accept what that means to me- a stepping forth in my anointing others. 


I am experiencing something around the feminine on a deeper level- listening to I Remember Union- the folding in of the story of Mary Magdalene and Jesus in my own story- seeing it playing out in my own life- grounding it into the earth.  That looks like the balance of receiving and nurturing with action each day; that looks like witnessing the "hatred" of woman at a wedding the other day and feeling and saying- I am sorry- feeling the healing of generations.  That manifests in the true seeing of what is being offered by the man online and calling him up to something else-as I call my own masculine up to something else.  Knowing the whole time, it is all perfect!

I step outside to pray and feel such wholeness…my breast touches the computer screen and what begins to play is The Light of my Calling from Mary Magdalene- speaking about the realization of the light in every pore as she walks in the world what happens- I am in the world!  That  is what I wanted- during the sitting outside I kept remembering the feeling of Being the anointed one…and as I said the prayer remembering all the spells, agreements were to not remember-  I remember!!!  Wanting to share with everyone and knowing that it is time to stay with it today….

So the new beginnings is knowing on a level I have never known that I do create my world, that I am responsible for that, that I can change it in an instant, that I am whole and complete with all parts coming together in love, that I am here to experience all of life and there is really nothing wrong. The new beginnings is a deep understanding that it is all an inside job.  The new beginnings is the journey home.  I feel I have crossed some street, some intersection where nothing will ever be the same and I am OK with not really knowing what that means.  I trust, I awaken each day and rejoice and re-choice- I am happy, I am healthy, I am rich, I am wise, I am human and I am God!


I so Love Us!!!
Lynn