What a week or more....can't quite follow the days- in the moment, I feel fullness and width and breadth and if I widen back a bit I can feel quick shifts and if I widen back even more, I feel like I have experienced lifetimes in these moments!
Last Wednesday, I moved to another house sit by myself. The house and grounds are beautiful- especially the grounds- pool, lush gardens, lots of green- so I moved from the house I was sharing with two others into all this space. And in all this space, movement and shifts were created.
On Thursday, I felt aggravation and off balance- not quite what I have been experiencing and trusting it was perfect. As I was witnessed by those Beings I am communing with, it became clear I was out of alignment- how it looked was I had chosen to return to a consciousness of lack, of MINE- the people in this house are clearly rich, wealthy and yet I had to ask the maid to get toliet paper and it was locked up in the owner's room. Well, this is not the world I am creating- I am creating richness, abundance, sharing of resources... I was aggravated- why was I here again?
And you know I don't know the answer but I have met all the feelings with no agenda- not wanting them to leave, or go away, or stay- just being present to the experience. I have experienced the energy of the elite in me, I sat today and saw and felt the land telling me that no one owns it- it is not MINE, I experienced annoyance towards the dogs I am caring for, I felt the fear of the power of money and MINE- the dark, I have felt the disconnection from all the creative energy I had been feeling, I have felt the seperation from the whole- alone and feeling sorry for myself- probably more and that is what is coming up now. All through this I have been honest with what I have been feeling- being present with the others I hang with - witnessing them in what has been up for them- seeing in real time how we are all connected! And today I feel the love I have for mySelf and the acceptance of where the owners are and the gratitude for my choice of Being in this world, in this way. It feels like I have the space to hold it all and in this I feel creation surging again.
Friday I cancelled a tennis game- much to the woman's chagrin- and listened to my urge to hike the mountain. This was a hike to ceremony grounds the indigineous use and when I heard about it - knew it was for me.
I hiked multi-dimensionally- meaning as I hiked up- I saw and felt the story that kept me where I always have been in life- that's enough for today, I think I will stop here; it's too much, I can't go on; looking around at one time, seeing a circle and getting it was the lower circle of ceremony and saying oh this is enough; and yet I kept on going- all alone. I likened the hike up the mountain to the ascension of the soul- walking through everyday life, having experiences and learning, relationships- it was potent to hear and feel the stories. I got to the top and experienced the merging of land, lake and sky- what I called heaven! Sitting there so grateful for me and my dedication and persistence.
Then it was time to come down the mountain- bringing heaven on earth back into the physical- as I came down the mountain once again, I heard and experienced everything multi-dimensionally- I was not too sure- footed coming down and kept hearing stay low to the ground; I came down much quicker than I had gone up; and landing back at the beginning of the hike, I felt such a sense of accomplishment- I did it and I did it alone- it is the walk of souverignty- each of us is to do it on our own- it is where we are now! Thank us!
Today I witnessed another's flock of freedom- the final disentanglement- I sit here and write and feel my heart open to each of us who have started, stopped to take a rest, or completed the hike...
Life is happening- the shift is here- we are ascending- each time we choose in love, each time we stay present, each time we energetically stay present in our own strength no matter what is going on outside of us, each time we let go of an old pattern or story, each time we accept and trust.
Love,
Lynn
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