New waves of I am

I was asked the other day by a dear friend for what purpose do I write- I write because when I do something opens up and I get even more information- more feeling about what is up in the moment.

For years I have read, heard many spiritual principles- for me what seems to be happening is the actual experience in the body, in the feelings, and actual manifestation and synchronicity in the outer world.

So today I woke up and had my experience and chose to sit and write first off- then I open up the Tut note and Rev Angela's note that I receive each morning- each one building on what I am experiencing- building the trust muscle even more!

On this very quiet, peaceful morning I lay in bed for a long time- feeling warm, safe- thinking a lot about last night and my reaction to the sexual talk and energy between two friends – I definitely had a charge and there was definitely some untapped, unmet need there- as I write this I accept this in me- I love this in me.  What I noticed this morning was a desire to go to back-ups- other Beings that I share a connection with to check things out- figure things out; and I loved and accepted that too.  Remembering and feeling and experiencing that all the answers are right here- I do not have to go anywhere else- writing this is allowing me to really feel this- this being that I am all of this- I am the untapped, unmet sexual energy; I am the reaction to it; I am how it played out between the two friends; I am the desire to check everything out with others; I am all the thoughts around this- and with this I have peace.  Thank you to all who are in service by just showing up and Being you; thank you to Me.  I can hold it all it appears.

What I also experienced as I continued to breathe deeply and relax into all of this is all that I am- feeling as many cells as I could lighting up- I am that; feeling home- I am that; feeling abundance and richness- I am that; feeling safe- I am that; feeling unsure of the how and the where- I am that; feeling the power of love- I am that; feeling Being in service- I am that; feeling vibrant health- I am that; feeling Being alone- I am that; feeling community and family- I am that- while I was feeling all of this looking back over the past few moments and seeing how quickly the I am are being seen in the physical world.

The asking of what’s next over the last few weeks and the letting go of what that may look like and the shifts that are occurring in the physical world.

I did read something somewhere last night that one of the experiences to be had is to feel the universe within; to feel the creation of universe- I am getting a sense of what that may feel like- it is a tingle and I allow for all my dreams and visions to come true- work that I enjoy; Being in service and living with the vibe tribe.

And I might add that I am so choosing the easy button on what’s next!  

Love to Us,

Lynn

Leadership Consciousness

This has been written over the last two days beginning Tuesday the 25th and I have to say it feels like it has been longer than that- could today be Wednesday?

I picked the Moses card last night as I was sitting with a very strong desire, wish to shift  the stories holding us- to allow for heaven on earth- to vibrate only that which is love- Moses is about leadership and about taking action- I can feel it is action inspired by Spirit- great things were done in strong intention by Moses- the parting of the Red Sea- as I write this I remember the message of the bee during circle meditation- the bee is so heavy and yet is able to keep in flight somehow- strong intention no matter what.  That was one of the gifts given to me recently as a sign.

And again this morning I open up Rev Angela’s post to find a reference to Moses- the leadership consciousness.  I open up to allow this in this morning and as soon as I did- I was shown the judgment that Donna (Donna is the woman I care for in exchange for room and board) had about me getting up at 6:45 by her statement that she makes almost every morning of her having  to get me up- all in a swoosh I got a hit to dive in- state the judgment I felt behind the statement and open up to allow her to step into owning her feelings- exactly what I had been writing about the No Story Hour (another gift from the meditation of an offer to the world)- whooo…. It is happening, I am it- at the same millisecond I saw the story I had about her which made me not do this in the past- she has had a brain injury, she is older and not doing the work all of it…… and I remember what I strongly stated to Jason yesterday- I am here to vibrate for each Being to step into their power with no story around the who…… here we go….

So the beginning of the end of this story is that after we got back on track this morning I took Donna to her exercise class for the first time since her original accident- she was excited and nervous.  I dropped her and sat in the lobby feeling leadership in the information I put out about an offer here in Boulder of Latihan- when Donna came out of her class I could tell there was an issue- at first I thought she was emotional about this big first- she was quiet and teary….she said no to coffee with the girls which I understand is a tradition and she said no to King Soopers on the way home when she was so excited to get food to cook for her daughter coming over on Thursday- I noticed her looking around as we drove not really seeing and as I write this getting that she was seeing for the first time.  Wow- this is for why I write- I am getting such a beautiful download about my time with her yesterday and I must share it!  I am blessed with a piece of what  I bring  in this world to see things, people, situations in ways other do not- I am able to take journeys and see colors, shapes and patterns not of this world we walk around in- some people call it going through a veil.  As I write this and remember her in the car and at the hospital yesterday, I know she was experiencing all that- I was quiet for the most part- tender- acknowledging her fear- she kept looking at me in the hospital and I just witnessed her.

She got to see what truly is and I got to witness her – I knew she was a big soul for calling me in and I knew I was going to get a gift- I have gotten many- but oh wow!  This is potent- listening to Snatum Kaur singing guide my way home- Sat Nam.

Donna is in the hospital dying as I write this- she is leaving her body and her spirit is leaving differently- I honor this experience and ask to experience all of it 100%.

I AM HERE TO GUIDE THE WAY HOME!  Feeling that and the gift it is for me and any other- we are all on our way and right now this Being is leading by just Being.

What’s next Beautiful One!!!!

It is all within!!!!

I have just experienced a weekend with no energy tugging or pulling at me- how this looks on the outer is the house mate is gone- how it feels on the inside is a deeper connection to Me.  The house mate would not be gone without the other experience- I am getting that learning on a different level.

The sky is dark as I awaken after a deep sleep- listening to Ashana singing Deep Peace- this morning two feelings or memories arise- the feel of  looking at each Being in my life and each thing and each encounter as Being in service to me- that way I can touch the reverence of all….  I am also reminded that when I choose to leave, I am choosing to leave a certain consciousness, not necessarily a physical space although that may occur as well- when I don’t like what is happening on the outer- what is it that I can let go of within- to let go of what I no longer need in my life- to allow what I need to do- what I need to serve.

 I am fondly feeling the call- the call to leave the job, the house, the pets, the family, the friends, the town where I spent most of my life, the consciousness that this all represented.   The first stop physically was Wisconsin- I showed up and the gifts flowed- I am feeling and honoring my unique contribution to the scene and at the same time I receive the unique contribution that was offered by each Being-all of this brought in with a new energy, a new vibe there is no separation-Teacher------Student----Mother------Child-------Harmony------Community------Power------Reclaiming Lost Parts------Witnessing----Leaving in Love.

The next call heard was Mexico-----Stepping into Power no matter what was in the environment-----Community-------Authentic Sharing and the lifting of all-------Powerful Witness----Leaving in Love----Abundance, Richness all while Being in service----Self Care. 

And now here I am in Boulder having answered the call of the dear One---this morning feeling the power of Being here with the house mate- owning mySelf in this---the full realization of leaving the victim consciousness for good---while allowing others to choose for themselves---Sharing gifts----Union----the Power of Witnessing the story and the power of the story and the ease of the letting go----Reconnection to reverence----Creation----remembering I am here to invite in something different---Community!

With each experience I have, an invitation is made for all to join- how joy-filled when another soul accepts!  How joy-filled when I accept- although only the when is in question here and as I write this I get it is only a matter of "time" for all.

So grateful for the journey- so grateful for the choice- so grateful for What’s next????

All my love and invitation,

Lynn

The Joy of Humility

Hello world- haven't felt much like writing lately- although something is bubbling- action today is to share something by dear Nicky Hamid that inspired and touched me!

After a day of sadness and feeling at yet another cliff of consciousness- I jump!!!!
Love,
Lynn

The Joy of Humility

This one is so difficult for me to write because it is so central to whom I love being and wish to do it the justice and importance it deserves . And so, knowing how limited words are I hesitate to put it on paper. But my friends from Home are giving me a gentle shove and so I share this with my own plea to you, dear reader, to allow for yourself to feel what it is pointing to.
We are coming out of a reality that has analysed everything to the point of rendering life profane, mundane, feelingless, logical and boring, and empty. Where is the reverence, the preciousness, the freshness, the fullness? Where is the fearlessness of knowing and sharing the sacred, the most Holy of Holy? Amongst the passion, the creativity, the spiritual purpose, and the healing paraphernalia where is the humility and the reverence? Where is the total unshakable belief in the preciousness of the simplest, smallest, least prominent, quietest?
That there is a force far greater than me. That I cannot know the Divine in the preciousness and the grandure of even to smallest from the intellect. That I cannot debate about it or approach when I am in crisis. That I cannot court it by wearing jewelry, amulets, pendants, or crystals, or through qany ritual practice.
That this force is everywhere, that it requires my recogniton of knowing my place. That my place is the humble one and its place is not. That I cannot ever control this force from place of logical mind. And that if my allegance is to things, to beliefs, to people then I have to be honest and stop kidding myself that any of it is of central importance to my Divinity.
It is the dishonesty in me that prevents my knowing who I am and what I am a part of and it is the dishonesty that prevents my healing. It is not the healing techniques or the candles or herbs or perfumes, etc…. It is the dishonesty that does not allow the fact that you do not have faith at all. It is the dishonesty in the affirmations, intentions, prayers, and beliefs in the power of the Divine and sacred with that belief there may not be that miracle power at all, of that I am not worthy, or that there is something missing in me that prevents Grace from entering of the Source shining through me unimpeded.
Surrender is when you can say “take away what I no longer need in my life, bring me what I need to do, what I need to serve, anything”. But most cannot say that prayer without putting something on at the end. “But if it humiliates me I don’t want it”. We are afraid that a spiritual life will require a humble life, and we equate humble with poor, and poor is powerless. The mind wants to build its place but the soul knows its place. Being humble means never leaving the place of soul the mystical indescribable place of Self.
When it comes to surrendering big, important, significant, and special, has to give way to Loving Union with All That Is. Knowing my place and taking Home/Soul/Essence everywhere I go, never too tall to bow my head in the presence of the sacred. Because everything is sacred is precious is essential for the whole.
And when you can bow your head because you know when you are in the presence of Divine and you know you are completely protected from the feeling that you are going to lose your soul to someone else’s fear. That noone could ever pierce your dignity.
And the change in our world and the change in your life comes when you are no longer afraid to follow your prompting because of what others may think of you. When, for example, you are going somewhere with a friend or colleague and prompted to touch some stranger and offer a kind word, and you ignore the mind that says “what will my companion think”. When you follow your soul call, your connection, your being in Presence and Source, Grace follows you into to lives of those you touch, and with the truly mystical comes the miracles. And you may not know what happens in the others life, and it does not matter because in the being, is the doing, and the doing is the reward in and of itself, for you know beyond any shadow of a doubt that you are in the presence of the sacred, the most Holy. And you bow your head in reverence of being in the presence of such infinite Holiness.
For me it is so beautifully felt when I see someone at random and all I want to do is to wash their feet. I sense the life they are leading, and perhaps the pain they are feeling, and I am moved by the grandure of their Being. Perhaps washing their feet will signal something to them of who they are but my need for action is how I love being in the Presence of Divinity and the ease and comfort I have in the connection. The profound opportunity is everywhere. Being totally in humility requires such bravery, such a magnificent confidence of connection of self to All that Is. Who needs a sacred site or temple, to feel the utter sacred power of Divine Presence? It becomes the greatest joy to be daily given the opportunities to touch as an angel, the sacred Presence of another. And in the reverence, that comes with seeing from the point of Source and being in the Presence of Source, I am most deliciously and gratefully humbled.
Delicious also is the truth feeling that in this humility in the Presence of the sacred, in this feeling of disappearance of self importance in the presence of another, of invisibility, ego is completely at rest, I am totally present and at one, insignificant and complete. How can feeling so insignificant feel so awesome, so expansive, so inclusive? How absolutely profound. No wonder men and women who have got this have been called mystics. The truth in the paradox of “Less is more”.
May you feel this Joy.

By: Nicky Hamid

What's Going on?

First sentence that comes up when I feel the title is - "I don't know!"  The second thing that is so very present is this feeling I am experiencing of space- of possibility- of pure acceptance and gratitude- the more I feel that, the more I am experiencing the woman that I am living with and caring for- desiring to be near me.  I feel different about this too- in the past I would be aggravated or annoyed- again I am feeling acceptance and just handling each issue that comes up and returning to listening to the music and writing and connecting with people on Facebook.

Last week I felt aggravation and annoyance with everyone and everything- even my dear friend Jason told me a story and I got aggravated- I went dancing and got aggravated- it was mirrored for me by another dear friend who got aggravated with me.  I listened to others speak and experience the original, deep wound in the last few weeks- clarity is that I am caring for a woman who chooses over and over again not to care for herself- my deep wound of feeling the original separation from Source/God and how with that experience do I care for myself?  No wonder I was feeling aggravation, agitation, anger, fear....  This is not new- I have discovered and done the work around this wound and yet it is still present- OK- feel it, experience it, accept it!  It did feel different- I wasn't in any hurry to make it go away and I was curious about it- kept asking the higher version of Lynn to show me what I needed to see or hear or feel.

There was a pivotal moment back in 2008 when I came up from a meditation and felt done- I actually said the words- I don't care who is coming along, I am done and ready  to go on. This was echoed by many other beings on the planet at that moment and a shift occurred- not sure what it held in the collective- I know for me it looked like letting go of everything in the physical world.   I have been feeling that way in the last few days- first I was feeling it is time to move on from caring for this woman and yes that is part of it- but a deeper awareness of leaving a consciousness is present.  Leaving in love as I have been remembering over the last few years!  This leaving is not so dramatic or drastic but it does feel complete- I wrote about it yesterday after a walk and wanted to land it so here it is- so grateful for the computer on which I write- the blog on which it lands and the opportunity to have it land in this reality!  This leaving is also about remembering what it is that I wish to create- what world do I wish to live in.

I am very clear that it is time to leave this consciousness in love- what is this consciousness that I desire to leave?

·      the consciousness of lack

·      the consciousness of mine

·      the consciousness of negativity

·      the consciousness of fear

·      the consciousness of victim

·      the consciousness of not taking care of one’s self- even in service

·      the vampire consciousness- separation of giving and receiving

·      the consciousness of lying

·      density

I am in wonder what it would be like for the collective to shift this- I don’t know- remembering what it is that I always felt or that I felt and forgot-

• ·      the consciousness of richness and abundance and wealth- recognizing in all.
• ·      the taking on of I am God- all powerful and able to play well with others- the powerful witness of this.
• ·      the knowing that change happens all the time and change just means an opportunity to experience something else.
• ·      it feels and looks like all Beings able to communicate with each other without words- just with thoughts, a look, a touch.
• ·      it is knowing there is plenty of food, shelter, love, energy,money and these can be shared as well.
• ·      all the gifts- enthusiasm, playfulness, spontaneous creativity, joy, seeing it all can be shared and honored by those who receive; we receive as the sharing happens.
• ·             Witnessing with humility the gifts others desire to share and accepting with grace.
• ·      Everyone takes care of themselves including asking for help when we need it.
• ·      We live together in peace and co-create with nature and the environment.
• ·      Accepting and loving ourselves and all others exactly where we are.  I witness this powerfully.
• ·      Fun, fun, fun is the order of every day.
• ·      The ability to choose all this without suffering and understanding that some will still choose to suffer.
• ·      Lightness and life and magic.

AAnd in the words of my dear friend Elizabeth Feisst- And so it is!!!

THE MEETING OF WORLDS

I heard tonight from a woman I worked with in the nineties that what she learned from me is that people are better off for me having taken care of them; she witnessed me being that…she is about to embark on a new career as a nurse and is so excited and open about the difference she will make by just showing up!!!  She owns what she learned from me.

I cried when I heard that- is it possible that all along I was who I am just now remembering I am- honoring myself and the love that I give????

It seems to be an important time for me to hear this and integrate it, as I am caring for one of our elders who has had a brain injury.   It is the first time since 2009 that I am doing something that brings in cash and I haven’t been with our elders since the early 2000…

And it has been quite the wild ride over the last few weeks… how does one care for another who doesn’t want it and is resistant to care- how does one who stands for the sovereignty and individuation of each being on the planet care for someone and allow for that and for safety at the same time???

One of my gifts is seeing who people really are- that sometimes deeply buried light and vibration of love and also what they choose in each moment.  And so I bring that into how I care for this woman.

I saw yesterday that I wanted her to be different – that I wanted her to accept the help the therapists were giving by the suggestions and exercises and that I was given by the reminders- that was causing me pain…once I saw that I was able to release it and I made an authentic apology to her for what it was doing to her- causing friction, causing her to feel uncomfortable, causing her to feel out of control in her own home.  This awareness happened while I was playing with the little dog next door- I asked the dog what was different between her and the woman and the dog showed me she was ready to give and receive love- the truth is the elder is not.  The question then for me is “can I love her for exactly who she is” and the answer is yes.

Yesterday was also the day I saw the ego try to hook me strongly- a friend of mine used to talk about this and I have never experienced it until yesterday.  This elder usually doesn’t meet my eyes- yesterday while she was in resistance to something I suggested her ego looked at me with such anger and flash of hate- and tried a hook with words.  I was able to smile and not take the bait for the first time in two weeks.

So today was about what takes care of me in the parameters of creating a safe as space as possible for the woman- i.e. she wanted to take the trash out and I asked if I could accompany her- good thing I did, because she almost fell.  I suggested that if she really doesn’t want to participate in what the therapists are recommending she say so instead of saying yes and then creating tension between the two of us.  I have totally let go of any need to protect her, keep her safe from herself, and keep her from falling- and I love her for who she is.

I also got clear that I want to work with people who may not know how to love themselves (because I did not in the beginning and am still learning) but are willing- are open…

I was telling a friend of mine today that I feel like humanity is being played out in this condo in Boulder- I have remembered who I am and continue to return to that and this beloved elder is still working her mind to control her body, still resistant to change, not being present to what is and not wanting to accept who she is, not taking responsibility.

I am here to experience something that is part of the whole part of my Being here- I accept that, I accept that I created this- I love that I created this- I know she is a big soul to have called me in- and I am open to experience all that is for the greater good.

And today it is with more grace and peace than the last two weeks and for that I am grateful….  I am grateful that my bodily needs are being taken care of- food, shelter and now see how this is the perfect opportunity to open up to create what’s next in my offer of service to the planet…

HOME

I sit here in Boulder, Colorado listening to Shiva music, the wind caressing my whole Being, two dogs laying at my feet, the sky is a bright,bright blue.  I spent a few minutes getting quiet and feeling the tingling, vibration that is me most of the time- tapping into the mountains and their love for me- as I type this I feel them!  We are all so happy to Be.
I have been here a week- staying with my dear brother, Jason who is opening his heart and home to me!  His generosity is huge and I am in deep appreciation.
I am experiencing life so differently than I have for awhile, maybe ever!  Each person I meet whether it is social or during a job interview, speaks my language; everyone is accepting of who I am; and many are truly alive!!!  My first evening here we went to a concert of WAH at the Double Rainbow Ranch and while we were all chanting- a double rainbow got created!  We danced outside in the wet grass with the children and horses- I glanced up a few times and found the eyes of recognition- you know that slight smile and nod of the head that says I see you and love you!
I have decided I want to be out with as many people as possible- no more living in my cave, no more living away from others, no more living separately.  I feel multiple streams of income including a part-time gig with a steady flow.  This is my first week here and I have had three interviews with a few scheduled for next week- each interview I get clearer for myself and I get to meet and connect with amazing people!  There is no judgment - there is true acceptance and seeing the greater good- with complete trust that whatever is created will be perfect!
I get to go on walks everyday- I get to ride around town or walk through town and see the mountains the whole time- I get to be outside most of the day and night- I get to sleep comfortably with the cool air coming in the windows- I get to dance- I get to sing- I get to experience a gong shower this evening!
I am reconnecting and connecting to people who have done deep work with a teacher I have studied with in the past- this week I have met three "family" and am looking forward to a connection with another "family" via Skype today- and Jason is "family" as well.
There is something significant happening in my life and I am so willing to dive into the flow of it!  And as I do this I am so willing to share this Being that is created in the moment with anyone who is open to receive!
I AM HOME!
So much love to me and to all!  Looking forward to the magic that gets created!

And I am creating the new- check out the new website being created in the moment- I got the book project accepted by Kickstarter so within the next week or so we will have more on this.....
www.flockoffreedom.com