Big energy!!!

One of the reasons I feel like the energy is so big right now that last night I had a headache for the first time in months- it was so intense that I actually took something for it- all I wanted to do was sleep and watch TV- so thank God it was Grey's Anatomy night!!!!

Feels like a significant day energy wise- the second day in a row of allowing the laying in bed and feeling and letting go and allowing it all.  I read last night that today was a day when we had total access to the Central Sun- when I felt that this morning it felt like total access to all parts of me- I felt strong, I felt all the possibilities, I felt like I was inviting people in, I felt like even though I could feel others in co-creation that I didn’t need them.  I read that today would be a great day to land all the dreams and wishes so I felt those differently than I have before- the difference was there was no need there was just this vibration of joy and welcoming:

·     I feel home being right here- meaning in me and I could feel the outer manifestation of home – me standing at the door inviting others in to eat, drink and be merry- no one else has to be there for this to be created- final letting go of this having to look like it is with one certain person or a certain neighborhood or a certain place.  This home is so rich and welcoming and loving- it is luxurious in that it holds.  Interesting enough this same space was felt the other night when I had friends over to Donna’s house- now that her being is not here my energy has filled all the space- as I write this I remember the space is where everything gets created.

·     I feel landing a space to call home and being out in the community as much as possible to touch as many as possible- I could feel small groups of play- dance, Latihan- all of this with no requirement as to the who or the what.

·     I feel related to all this the full support of cash, food- anything this Being requires to play in balance- with no attachment to how this shows up- there is a dear friend and sistar who has been supporting and witnessing me on this particular piece of the journey and I had shared with her that with whatever gets created I will share 10%- I felt the joy in writing her a big check for $10,000.  Don’t know the how- but the when is now!!!  In fact because I wrote this, I got up and wrote a check for $10,000.

·     Most nights I wake up and see lights flying all around me- this morning as I felt my breath inhaling all of me back in I saw the lights in me and around the body- especially the hands.

My desire is to do more work in small groups and today I am off to the small group I found here in Boulder- it is called Dreamweavers.  It is testimony to the power of small groups- my first visit I had a lot of judgment and stories around how I didn’t fit in- I know enough to ask to be shown what the judgment and stories are about and I saw everyone was mirroring for me the parts that I wasn’t accepting- being so arrogant about my walk and work.  I kept checking in and getting a yes to go back- with this group and my presence the energy created has allowed the opportunity for what’s next in living situation and work!!!  It has allowed for an opening with another member of the group to co-create dance here in Boulder; a Thanksgiving celebration and possible some other things.  It has allowed me to land Latihan here in Boulder with no attachment to my dear brother who I thought would co-create with me being there.  And all of this with no attachment to if it goes away tomorrow!

And so with no knowledge in the moment of what’s next with where I am to live or how I am to support myself, I relax into all is well right now in this moment!  I have a wonderful safe space to sleep and work, I have food and I have the group to go to today and bus fare to get there- more than anything , I have me..

With love to me and from me,

Lynn

New waves of I am

I was asked the other day by a dear friend for what purpose do I write- I write because when I do something opens up and I get even more information- more feeling about what is up in the moment.

For years I have read, heard many spiritual principles- for me what seems to be happening is the actual experience in the body, in the feelings, and actual manifestation and synchronicity in the outer world.

So today I woke up and had my experience and chose to sit and write first off- then I open up the Tut note and Rev Angela's note that I receive each morning- each one building on what I am experiencing- building the trust muscle even more!

On this very quiet, peaceful morning I lay in bed for a long time- feeling warm, safe- thinking a lot about last night and my reaction to the sexual talk and energy between two friends – I definitely had a charge and there was definitely some untapped, unmet need there- as I write this I accept this in me- I love this in me.  What I noticed this morning was a desire to go to back-ups- other Beings that I share a connection with to check things out- figure things out; and I loved and accepted that too.  Remembering and feeling and experiencing that all the answers are right here- I do not have to go anywhere else- writing this is allowing me to really feel this- this being that I am all of this- I am the untapped, unmet sexual energy; I am the reaction to it; I am how it played out between the two friends; I am the desire to check everything out with others; I am all the thoughts around this- and with this I have peace.  Thank you to all who are in service by just showing up and Being you; thank you to Me.  I can hold it all it appears.

What I also experienced as I continued to breathe deeply and relax into all of this is all that I am- feeling as many cells as I could lighting up- I am that; feeling home- I am that; feeling abundance and richness- I am that; feeling safe- I am that; feeling unsure of the how and the where- I am that; feeling the power of love- I am that; feeling Being in service- I am that; feeling vibrant health- I am that; feeling Being alone- I am that; feeling community and family- I am that- while I was feeling all of this looking back over the past few moments and seeing how quickly the I am are being seen in the physical world.

The asking of what’s next over the last few weeks and the letting go of what that may look like and the shifts that are occurring in the physical world.

I did read something somewhere last night that one of the experiences to be had is to feel the universe within; to feel the creation of universe- I am getting a sense of what that may feel like- it is a tingle and I allow for all my dreams and visions to come true- work that I enjoy; Being in service and living with the vibe tribe.

And I might add that I am so choosing the easy button on what’s next!  

Love to Us,

Lynn

Leadership Consciousness

This has been written over the last two days beginning Tuesday the 25th and I have to say it feels like it has been longer than that- could today be Wednesday?

I picked the Moses card last night as I was sitting with a very strong desire, wish to shift  the stories holding us- to allow for heaven on earth- to vibrate only that which is love- Moses is about leadership and about taking action- I can feel it is action inspired by Spirit- great things were done in strong intention by Moses- the parting of the Red Sea- as I write this I remember the message of the bee during circle meditation- the bee is so heavy and yet is able to keep in flight somehow- strong intention no matter what.  That was one of the gifts given to me recently as a sign.

And again this morning I open up Rev Angela’s post to find a reference to Moses- the leadership consciousness.  I open up to allow this in this morning and as soon as I did- I was shown the judgment that Donna (Donna is the woman I care for in exchange for room and board) had about me getting up at 6:45 by her statement that she makes almost every morning of her having  to get me up- all in a swoosh I got a hit to dive in- state the judgment I felt behind the statement and open up to allow her to step into owning her feelings- exactly what I had been writing about the No Story Hour (another gift from the meditation of an offer to the world)- whooo…. It is happening, I am it- at the same millisecond I saw the story I had about her which made me not do this in the past- she has had a brain injury, she is older and not doing the work all of it…… and I remember what I strongly stated to Jason yesterday- I am here to vibrate for each Being to step into their power with no story around the who…… here we go….

So the beginning of the end of this story is that after we got back on track this morning I took Donna to her exercise class for the first time since her original accident- she was excited and nervous.  I dropped her and sat in the lobby feeling leadership in the information I put out about an offer here in Boulder of Latihan- when Donna came out of her class I could tell there was an issue- at first I thought she was emotional about this big first- she was quiet and teary….she said no to coffee with the girls which I understand is a tradition and she said no to King Soopers on the way home when she was so excited to get food to cook for her daughter coming over on Thursday- I noticed her looking around as we drove not really seeing and as I write this getting that she was seeing for the first time.  Wow- this is for why I write- I am getting such a beautiful download about my time with her yesterday and I must share it!  I am blessed with a piece of what  I bring  in this world to see things, people, situations in ways other do not- I am able to take journeys and see colors, shapes and patterns not of this world we walk around in- some people call it going through a veil.  As I write this and remember her in the car and at the hospital yesterday, I know she was experiencing all that- I was quiet for the most part- tender- acknowledging her fear- she kept looking at me in the hospital and I just witnessed her.

She got to see what truly is and I got to witness her – I knew she was a big soul for calling me in and I knew I was going to get a gift- I have gotten many- but oh wow!  This is potent- listening to Snatum Kaur singing guide my way home- Sat Nam.

Donna is in the hospital dying as I write this- she is leaving her body and her spirit is leaving differently- I honor this experience and ask to experience all of it 100%.

I AM HERE TO GUIDE THE WAY HOME!  Feeling that and the gift it is for me and any other- we are all on our way and right now this Being is leading by just Being.

What’s next Beautiful One!!!!

It is all within!!!!

I have just experienced a weekend with no energy tugging or pulling at me- how this looks on the outer is the house mate is gone- how it feels on the inside is a deeper connection to Me.  The house mate would not be gone without the other experience- I am getting that learning on a different level.

The sky is dark as I awaken after a deep sleep- listening to Ashana singing Deep Peace- this morning two feelings or memories arise- the feel of  looking at each Being in my life and each thing and each encounter as Being in service to me- that way I can touch the reverence of all….  I am also reminded that when I choose to leave, I am choosing to leave a certain consciousness, not necessarily a physical space although that may occur as well- when I don’t like what is happening on the outer- what is it that I can let go of within- to let go of what I no longer need in my life- to allow what I need to do- what I need to serve.

 I am fondly feeling the call- the call to leave the job, the house, the pets, the family, the friends, the town where I spent most of my life, the consciousness that this all represented.   The first stop physically was Wisconsin- I showed up and the gifts flowed- I am feeling and honoring my unique contribution to the scene and at the same time I receive the unique contribution that was offered by each Being-all of this brought in with a new energy, a new vibe there is no separation-Teacher------Student----Mother------Child-------Harmony------Community------Power------Reclaiming Lost Parts------Witnessing----Leaving in Love.

The next call heard was Mexico-----Stepping into Power no matter what was in the environment-----Community-------Authentic Sharing and the lifting of all-------Powerful Witness----Leaving in Love----Abundance, Richness all while Being in service----Self Care. 

And now here I am in Boulder having answered the call of the dear One---this morning feeling the power of Being here with the house mate- owning mySelf in this---the full realization of leaving the victim consciousness for good---while allowing others to choose for themselves---Sharing gifts----Union----the Power of Witnessing the story and the power of the story and the ease of the letting go----Reconnection to reverence----Creation----remembering I am here to invite in something different---Community!

With each experience I have, an invitation is made for all to join- how joy-filled when another soul accepts!  How joy-filled when I accept- although only the when is in question here and as I write this I get it is only a matter of "time" for all.

So grateful for the journey- so grateful for the choice- so grateful for What’s next????

All my love and invitation,

Lynn

The Joy of Humility

Hello world- haven't felt much like writing lately- although something is bubbling- action today is to share something by dear Nicky Hamid that inspired and touched me!

After a day of sadness and feeling at yet another cliff of consciousness- I jump!!!!
Love,
Lynn

The Joy of Humility

This one is so difficult for me to write because it is so central to whom I love being and wish to do it the justice and importance it deserves . And so, knowing how limited words are I hesitate to put it on paper. But my friends from Home are giving me a gentle shove and so I share this with my own plea to you, dear reader, to allow for yourself to feel what it is pointing to.
We are coming out of a reality that has analysed everything to the point of rendering life profane, mundane, feelingless, logical and boring, and empty. Where is the reverence, the preciousness, the freshness, the fullness? Where is the fearlessness of knowing and sharing the sacred, the most Holy of Holy? Amongst the passion, the creativity, the spiritual purpose, and the healing paraphernalia where is the humility and the reverence? Where is the total unshakable belief in the preciousness of the simplest, smallest, least prominent, quietest?
That there is a force far greater than me. That I cannot know the Divine in the preciousness and the grandure of even to smallest from the intellect. That I cannot debate about it or approach when I am in crisis. That I cannot court it by wearing jewelry, amulets, pendants, or crystals, or through qany ritual practice.
That this force is everywhere, that it requires my recogniton of knowing my place. That my place is the humble one and its place is not. That I cannot ever control this force from place of logical mind. And that if my allegance is to things, to beliefs, to people then I have to be honest and stop kidding myself that any of it is of central importance to my Divinity.
It is the dishonesty in me that prevents my knowing who I am and what I am a part of and it is the dishonesty that prevents my healing. It is not the healing techniques or the candles or herbs or perfumes, etc…. It is the dishonesty that does not allow the fact that you do not have faith at all. It is the dishonesty in the affirmations, intentions, prayers, and beliefs in the power of the Divine and sacred with that belief there may not be that miracle power at all, of that I am not worthy, or that there is something missing in me that prevents Grace from entering of the Source shining through me unimpeded.
Surrender is when you can say “take away what I no longer need in my life, bring me what I need to do, what I need to serve, anything”. But most cannot say that prayer without putting something on at the end. “But if it humiliates me I don’t want it”. We are afraid that a spiritual life will require a humble life, and we equate humble with poor, and poor is powerless. The mind wants to build its place but the soul knows its place. Being humble means never leaving the place of soul the mystical indescribable place of Self.
When it comes to surrendering big, important, significant, and special, has to give way to Loving Union with All That Is. Knowing my place and taking Home/Soul/Essence everywhere I go, never too tall to bow my head in the presence of the sacred. Because everything is sacred is precious is essential for the whole.
And when you can bow your head because you know when you are in the presence of Divine and you know you are completely protected from the feeling that you are going to lose your soul to someone else’s fear. That noone could ever pierce your dignity.
And the change in our world and the change in your life comes when you are no longer afraid to follow your prompting because of what others may think of you. When, for example, you are going somewhere with a friend or colleague and prompted to touch some stranger and offer a kind word, and you ignore the mind that says “what will my companion think”. When you follow your soul call, your connection, your being in Presence and Source, Grace follows you into to lives of those you touch, and with the truly mystical comes the miracles. And you may not know what happens in the others life, and it does not matter because in the being, is the doing, and the doing is the reward in and of itself, for you know beyond any shadow of a doubt that you are in the presence of the sacred, the most Holy. And you bow your head in reverence of being in the presence of such infinite Holiness.
For me it is so beautifully felt when I see someone at random and all I want to do is to wash their feet. I sense the life they are leading, and perhaps the pain they are feeling, and I am moved by the grandure of their Being. Perhaps washing their feet will signal something to them of who they are but my need for action is how I love being in the Presence of Divinity and the ease and comfort I have in the connection. The profound opportunity is everywhere. Being totally in humility requires such bravery, such a magnificent confidence of connection of self to All that Is. Who needs a sacred site or temple, to feel the utter sacred power of Divine Presence? It becomes the greatest joy to be daily given the opportunities to touch as an angel, the sacred Presence of another. And in the reverence, that comes with seeing from the point of Source and being in the Presence of Source, I am most deliciously and gratefully humbled.
Delicious also is the truth feeling that in this humility in the Presence of the sacred, in this feeling of disappearance of self importance in the presence of another, of invisibility, ego is completely at rest, I am totally present and at one, insignificant and complete. How can feeling so insignificant feel so awesome, so expansive, so inclusive? How absolutely profound. No wonder men and women who have got this have been called mystics. The truth in the paradox of “Less is more”.
May you feel this Joy.

By: Nicky Hamid