I sit here in Boulder, Colorado listening to Shiva music, the wind caressing my whole Being, two dogs laying at my feet, the sky is a bright,bright blue. I spent a few minutes getting quiet and feeling the tingling, vibration that is me most of the time- tapping into the mountains and their love for me- as I type this I feel them! We are all so happy to Be.
I have been here a week- staying with my dear brother, Jason who is opening his heart and home to me! His generosity is huge and I am in deep appreciation.
I am experiencing life so differently than I have for awhile, maybe ever! Each person I meet whether it is social or during a job interview, speaks my language; everyone is accepting of who I am; and many are truly alive!!! My first evening here we went to a concert of WAH at the Double Rainbow Ranch and while we were all chanting- a double rainbow got created! We danced outside in the wet grass with the children and horses- I glanced up a few times and found the eyes of recognition- you know that slight smile and nod of the head that says I see you and love you!
I have decided I want to be out with as many people as possible- no more living in my cave, no more living away from others, no more living separately. I feel multiple streams of income including a part-time gig with a steady flow. This is my first week here and I have had three interviews with a few scheduled for next week- each interview I get clearer for myself and I get to meet and connect with amazing people! There is no judgment - there is true acceptance and seeing the greater good- with complete trust that whatever is created will be perfect!
I get to go on walks everyday- I get to ride around town or walk through town and see the mountains the whole time- I get to be outside most of the day and night- I get to sleep comfortably with the cool air coming in the windows- I get to dance- I get to sing- I get to experience a gong shower this evening!
I am reconnecting and connecting to people who have done deep work with a teacher I have studied with in the past- this week I have met three "family" and am looking forward to a connection with another "family" via Skype today- and Jason is "family" as well.
There is something significant happening in my life and I am so willing to dive into the flow of it! And as I do this I am so willing to share this Being that is created in the moment with anyone who is open to receive!
I AM HOME!
So much love to me and to all! Looking forward to the magic that gets created!
And I am creating the new- check out the new website being created in the moment- I got the book project accepted by Kickstarter so within the next week or so we will have more on this.....
www.flockoffreedom.com
Friday, July 15, 2011
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Freedom Train is up and running....
I love Ajijic, Mexico- what's not to love? It is now the rainy season where it rains almost every night- spectacular strong rains which cools the temperature down; the land is lush; and the smells of the flowers are potent. Susan and I visited Foco Tonal on Sunday- an entry for St. Germaine energy- we were the only gringos and my heart expanded in love for the people of Mexico.
And yet, last week after the four of us sat in loving authenticity with each ourselves and each other- I felt completion. I felt like I had done what I came here to do. Still don't know all of what that was- except to just show up and Be. A glimpse is that there are now four individuated Gods going out to walk on the planet in different directions.
So what to do- where to go? The only thing I could feel was - road trip and I have been feeling seeing my dear friend Jason in the physical.
I contacted the woman who dowsed me before leaving Wisconsin and received some gifts! Clarity is that I am being called in this moment to respond to where I am supported- where the resonance is calling me- some place where I will receive and I will be able to share all of me. The next physical stop appears in the moment to be New Mexico and then on to Boulder Colorado and getting to Vancouver BC by the end of the summer! Boy, once you let go- you just never know what's next.... And in this moment I remember that is what I have felt for awhile - the going to a place, the immersion in the place and then the leaving to the next.
I celebrate the wholeness and authenticity that this piece of the journey has brought me- the missing piece is the celebration- I knew there was no more "work" to do; and it feels wonderful to celebrate- now I am to spread this wherever I go- like Johnny Appleseed- the planting of celebration of remembering who we really are! There is nothing to do or be...
I also celebrate the disconnect of the old paradigm of lack around being in service and the creation of abundance and self-worth in service- Ajijic has given that to me. I have stayed at beautiful and luxurious places- I have eaten well- I have had fun experiences- I have learned I can take care of myself- all in abundance and richness. Walking this out each day.
I celebrate a wisp of the form that the next stage of service will take and I walk out everyday and create in the moment.
I do not know all the hows, the whats- today I change the HouseCarer site to Colorado, I write this, I schedule another Flock of Freedom call for Saturday, I witness other's opening up and the gifts that are coming in and I move to a house sit for the next few days- I pay attention and I take it slow. There is a list for my mind to manage and I wait in expectation to see what all appears in each moment- knowing it is not about me anymore.
We are moving together so that all is ready to support what's coming next.... wide-eyed and open hearted.
And yet, last week after the four of us sat in loving authenticity with each ourselves and each other- I felt completion. I felt like I had done what I came here to do. Still don't know all of what that was- except to just show up and Be. A glimpse is that there are now four individuated Gods going out to walk on the planet in different directions.
So what to do- where to go? The only thing I could feel was - road trip and I have been feeling seeing my dear friend Jason in the physical.
I contacted the woman who dowsed me before leaving Wisconsin and received some gifts! Clarity is that I am being called in this moment to respond to where I am supported- where the resonance is calling me- some place where I will receive and I will be able to share all of me. The next physical stop appears in the moment to be New Mexico and then on to Boulder Colorado and getting to Vancouver BC by the end of the summer! Boy, once you let go- you just never know what's next.... And in this moment I remember that is what I have felt for awhile - the going to a place, the immersion in the place and then the leaving to the next.
I celebrate the wholeness and authenticity that this piece of the journey has brought me- the missing piece is the celebration- I knew there was no more "work" to do; and it feels wonderful to celebrate- now I am to spread this wherever I go- like Johnny Appleseed- the planting of celebration of remembering who we really are! There is nothing to do or be...
I also celebrate the disconnect of the old paradigm of lack around being in service and the creation of abundance and self-worth in service- Ajijic has given that to me. I have stayed at beautiful and luxurious places- I have eaten well- I have had fun experiences- I have learned I can take care of myself- all in abundance and richness. Walking this out each day.
I celebrate a wisp of the form that the next stage of service will take and I walk out everyday and create in the moment.
I do not know all the hows, the whats- today I change the HouseCarer site to Colorado, I write this, I schedule another Flock of Freedom call for Saturday, I witness other's opening up and the gifts that are coming in and I move to a house sit for the next few days- I pay attention and I take it slow. There is a list for my mind to manage and I wait in expectation to see what all appears in each moment- knowing it is not about me anymore.
We are moving together so that all is ready to support what's coming next.... wide-eyed and open hearted.
Monday, May 30, 2011
The Ascension Hike
What a week or more....can't quite follow the days- in the moment, I feel fullness and width and breadth and if I widen back a bit I can feel quick shifts and if I widen back even more, I feel like I have experienced lifetimes in these moments!
Last Wednesday, I moved to another house sit by myself. The house and grounds are beautiful- especially the grounds- pool, lush gardens, lots of green- so I moved from the house I was sharing with two others into all this space. And in all this space, movement and shifts were created.
On Thursday, I felt aggravation and off balance- not quite what I have been experiencing and trusting it was perfect. As I was witnessed by those Beings I am communing with, it became clear I was out of alignment- how it looked was I had chosen to return to a consciousness of lack, of MINE- the people in this house are clearly rich, wealthy and yet I had to ask the maid to get toliet paper and it was locked up in the owner's room. Well, this is not the world I am creating- I am creating richness, abundance, sharing of resources... I was aggravated- why was I here again?
And you know I don't know the answer but I have met all the feelings with no agenda- not wanting them to leave, or go away, or stay- just being present to the experience. I have experienced the energy of the elite in me, I sat today and saw and felt the land telling me that no one owns it- it is not MINE, I experienced annoyance towards the dogs I am caring for, I felt the fear of the power of money and MINE- the dark, I have felt the disconnection from all the creative energy I had been feeling, I have felt the seperation from the whole- alone and feeling sorry for myself- probably more and that is what is coming up now. All through this I have been honest with what I have been feeling- being present with the others I hang with - witnessing them in what has been up for them- seeing in real time how we are all connected! And today I feel the love I have for mySelf and the acceptance of where the owners are and the gratitude for my choice of Being in this world, in this way. It feels like I have the space to hold it all and in this I feel creation surging again.
Friday I cancelled a tennis game- much to the woman's chagrin- and listened to my urge to hike the mountain. This was a hike to ceremony grounds the indigineous use and when I heard about it - knew it was for me.
I hiked multi-dimensionally- meaning as I hiked up- I saw and felt the story that kept me where I always have been in life- that's enough for today, I think I will stop here; it's too much, I can't go on; looking around at one time, seeing a circle and getting it was the lower circle of ceremony and saying oh this is enough; and yet I kept on going- all alone. I likened the hike up the mountain to the ascension of the soul- walking through everyday life, having experiences and learning, relationships- it was potent to hear and feel the stories. I got to the top and experienced the merging of land, lake and sky- what I called heaven! Sitting there so grateful for me and my dedication and persistence.
Then it was time to come down the mountain- bringing heaven on earth back into the physical- as I came down the mountain once again, I heard and experienced everything multi-dimensionally- I was not too sure- footed coming down and kept hearing stay low to the ground; I came down much quicker than I had gone up; and landing back at the beginning of the hike, I felt such a sense of accomplishment- I did it and I did it alone- it is the walk of souverignty- each of us is to do it on our own- it is where we are now! Thank us!
Today I witnessed another's flock of freedom- the final disentanglement- I sit here and write and feel my heart open to each of us who have started, stopped to take a rest, or completed the hike...
Life is happening- the shift is here- we are ascending- each time we choose in love, each time we stay present, each time we energetically stay present in our own strength no matter what is going on outside of us, each time we let go of an old pattern or story, each time we accept and trust.
Love,
Lynn
Last Wednesday, I moved to another house sit by myself. The house and grounds are beautiful- especially the grounds- pool, lush gardens, lots of green- so I moved from the house I was sharing with two others into all this space. And in all this space, movement and shifts were created.
On Thursday, I felt aggravation and off balance- not quite what I have been experiencing and trusting it was perfect. As I was witnessed by those Beings I am communing with, it became clear I was out of alignment- how it looked was I had chosen to return to a consciousness of lack, of MINE- the people in this house are clearly rich, wealthy and yet I had to ask the maid to get toliet paper and it was locked up in the owner's room. Well, this is not the world I am creating- I am creating richness, abundance, sharing of resources... I was aggravated- why was I here again?
And you know I don't know the answer but I have met all the feelings with no agenda- not wanting them to leave, or go away, or stay- just being present to the experience. I have experienced the energy of the elite in me, I sat today and saw and felt the land telling me that no one owns it- it is not MINE, I experienced annoyance towards the dogs I am caring for, I felt the fear of the power of money and MINE- the dark, I have felt the disconnection from all the creative energy I had been feeling, I have felt the seperation from the whole- alone and feeling sorry for myself- probably more and that is what is coming up now. All through this I have been honest with what I have been feeling- being present with the others I hang with - witnessing them in what has been up for them- seeing in real time how we are all connected! And today I feel the love I have for mySelf and the acceptance of where the owners are and the gratitude for my choice of Being in this world, in this way. It feels like I have the space to hold it all and in this I feel creation surging again.
Friday I cancelled a tennis game- much to the woman's chagrin- and listened to my urge to hike the mountain. This was a hike to ceremony grounds the indigineous use and when I heard about it - knew it was for me.
I hiked multi-dimensionally- meaning as I hiked up- I saw and felt the story that kept me where I always have been in life- that's enough for today, I think I will stop here; it's too much, I can't go on; looking around at one time, seeing a circle and getting it was the lower circle of ceremony and saying oh this is enough; and yet I kept on going- all alone. I likened the hike up the mountain to the ascension of the soul- walking through everyday life, having experiences and learning, relationships- it was potent to hear and feel the stories. I got to the top and experienced the merging of land, lake and sky- what I called heaven! Sitting there so grateful for me and my dedication and persistence.
Then it was time to come down the mountain- bringing heaven on earth back into the physical- as I came down the mountain once again, I heard and experienced everything multi-dimensionally- I was not too sure- footed coming down and kept hearing stay low to the ground; I came down much quicker than I had gone up; and landing back at the beginning of the hike, I felt such a sense of accomplishment- I did it and I did it alone- it is the walk of souverignty- each of us is to do it on our own- it is where we are now! Thank us!
Today I witnessed another's flock of freedom- the final disentanglement- I sit here and write and feel my heart open to each of us who have started, stopped to take a rest, or completed the hike...
Life is happening- the shift is here- we are ascending- each time we choose in love, each time we stay present, each time we energetically stay present in our own strength no matter what is going on outside of us, each time we let go of an old pattern or story, each time we accept and trust.
Love,
Lynn
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Freedom for you and me!!!
This is my first technology entry into posting videos- have always loved this song and we don't see too many eagles in Mexico- not like I have seen in Wisconsin. The eagle reminds me of soaring high with my dreams and the gift of seeing a bigger picture than is right in front of me.
I am feeling a quickening- not an impatience- just a quickening and a collapse of time. I am experiencing each day as full, complete- whether I have plans or not.
Yesterday I had the experience of a heart full opening as I witnessed the scenes from the tornado in Joplin and I witnessed this big soul, my brother- the city manager- holding himself together while he directed the efforts- knowing in my whole being that nothing was wrong with what happened, feeling the sadness and loss, experiencing such possibility, such love.
So grateful to be here at this time, in this way- letting go of any thought that I know what is going on and just showing up as this being of love- witnessing it all!!!!
Love,
Lynn
I am feeling a quickening- not an impatience- just a quickening and a collapse of time. I am experiencing each day as full, complete- whether I have plans or not.
Yesterday I had the experience of a heart full opening as I witnessed the scenes from the tornado in Joplin and I witnessed this big soul, my brother- the city manager- holding himself together while he directed the efforts- knowing in my whole being that nothing was wrong with what happened, feeling the sadness and loss, experiencing such possibility, such love.
So grateful to be here at this time, in this way- letting go of any thought that I know what is going on and just showing up as this being of love- witnessing it all!!!!
Love,
Lynn
Sunday, May 8, 2011
My claim to abundance and thriving!!!
For the first time I can remember in a long while, I feel in the flow of life, I feel like I am the flow of life! I have been working and playing in the field of creating all of this feeling within- feeling all fear, clearing out old patterns, letting go of people, places, things that are not in the same field of resonance anymore- all of this done in love- feeling my imagination, spirit, dreams, passion, innocence, joy returning. I tear up with the feeling of this at times- I remember a time working with a shaman in the desert and sitting around a circle with loved ones and feeling such wideness, openess, joy, love and wondering then if it was possible to feel like this all of the time. I was answered with a question- I wonder??? I am here to say it is possible!!!! I am experiencing more and more of this no matter what is showing up in the outer world.
In this moment, I hear someone get sharp in a response and there is no taking it personal; in this moment, I sit in witness to another Being and pulse to equalize and know who I am- not taking on another's journey- just Being and know it is enough and it is exactly what the being requires; in this moment, I witness a talk at a group and can hear the multi-dimensional message the speaker is giving and can feel the fullness without any judgment and in this moment, I breathe deeply and relax- I am safe...
I feel in this moment 100% that everything is working out- now that my dreams and passion and imagination are returning and I am open to receive all that is to be given- now that I am aware of what is going on in my Being to tell me I am off track in any way- now that I accept the courage and gifts I am!
And this inner is showing up in the outer is : I am living in a most luxurious home on top of a mountain overlooking the lake- the home has an infinity pool- I am living with two other Beings who are "family" and I love them and they love me- they see me and I see them- such ease, such grace- the beginnings of commune-unity; the first day I moved here, we went for a walk to get some more apples for a cleanse we were playing with and ran into a beautiful man in all aspects- a real estate man- even before we said anything he could feel us and see us and saw if we were his first clients it would be a blessing and he could also feel how big we were and what it is we are up too- he wants to meet with the whole group here to know more about us; today after the talk today we followed my desire to get some of Dona's Donuts and saw a sign from the Arbore Real Estate office (the same office from which the beautiful man came from) about training and consulting and my friend got a hit about even more with this real estate agent- possibilites.....; Tree of Life has come up over and over as a memory for me and here in Mexico, trees are honored- they are not cut down- here in Mexico my tree of life is not getting cut down, it is thriving- I have created a physical representation of my Tree of Life- Arbore means tree in Spanish; I created a bag of clothes for 40 pesos the other day- clothes required for the hot weather here- clothes I picked and didn't try on and everything fit perfectly; I am co-creating ways of being more present and in the world with another Being- it is effortless and delightful; I am creating opportunties to allow the flow of cash into my life; I am also aware in this new field that there is no mine- I have practiced that for two years now and can feel it in my bones and cells- I am to just show up in each moment and Be and I will know what or what not to do or say- it may be that I open a door and another steps through- it may be that I am the one stepping through the door- I am safe, I am taken care of - by Me and it looks like all of us...
Love,
Lynn
FYI- My spell check doesn't work so I get what I get....
In this moment, I hear someone get sharp in a response and there is no taking it personal; in this moment, I sit in witness to another Being and pulse to equalize and know who I am- not taking on another's journey- just Being and know it is enough and it is exactly what the being requires; in this moment, I witness a talk at a group and can hear the multi-dimensional message the speaker is giving and can feel the fullness without any judgment and in this moment, I breathe deeply and relax- I am safe...
I feel in this moment 100% that everything is working out- now that my dreams and passion and imagination are returning and I am open to receive all that is to be given- now that I am aware of what is going on in my Being to tell me I am off track in any way- now that I accept the courage and gifts I am!
And this inner is showing up in the outer is : I am living in a most luxurious home on top of a mountain overlooking the lake- the home has an infinity pool- I am living with two other Beings who are "family" and I love them and they love me- they see me and I see them- such ease, such grace- the beginnings of commune-unity; the first day I moved here, we went for a walk to get some more apples for a cleanse we were playing with and ran into a beautiful man in all aspects- a real estate man- even before we said anything he could feel us and see us and saw if we were his first clients it would be a blessing and he could also feel how big we were and what it is we are up too- he wants to meet with the whole group here to know more about us; today after the talk today we followed my desire to get some of Dona's Donuts and saw a sign from the Arbore Real Estate office (the same office from which the beautiful man came from) about training and consulting and my friend got a hit about even more with this real estate agent- possibilites.....; Tree of Life has come up over and over as a memory for me and here in Mexico, trees are honored- they are not cut down- here in Mexico my tree of life is not getting cut down, it is thriving- I have created a physical representation of my Tree of Life- Arbore means tree in Spanish; I created a bag of clothes for 40 pesos the other day- clothes required for the hot weather here- clothes I picked and didn't try on and everything fit perfectly; I am co-creating ways of being more present and in the world with another Being- it is effortless and delightful; I am creating opportunties to allow the flow of cash into my life; I am also aware in this new field that there is no mine- I have practiced that for two years now and can feel it in my bones and cells- I am to just show up in each moment and Be and I will know what or what not to do or say- it may be that I open a door and another steps through- it may be that I am the one stepping through the door- I am safe, I am taken care of - by Me and it looks like all of us...
Love,
Lynn
FYI- My spell check doesn't work so I get what I get....
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
I Can Relax Now
Another incredible week in paradise- Mexcio where the sun always shines, the lake looks like an ocean and the mountains rise up along the vistas....
I am having a challenge tracking when and what all is occurring at this point, but I awoke this morning with a deep,cellular knowing that I can and am taking care of mySelf. This is not just in providing food and shelter and keeping my body healthy- this is about the Being and Living with others and knowing that I can take care of mySelf- that I can take time alone, that I can schedule playtime without any attachment to who shows up, that I can be in support of someone and not take on their stuff.
There is this feeling that has come over me beginning yesterday and continuing today that all I have ever dreamed of or worked towards is about to come true- this is not a fairy tale and it is also not life as I have known it.
I have desired to create heaven on earth, I have desired to have playmates to play with in the garden of Eden, I have desired to be of true service to the One- meaning to allow my mind to get out of the way and trust that my body and Being will know the right words to say, the right action to take, the right gift to give.
And so over the last few years, I have let go of everything- the house I lived in, the jobs , the friends, family, money, car, any sense of thinking I know what is happening, beliefs, stories, patterns. I stand here listening- hearing words or vibrations
from inside, all around; receiving gifts of words or touch from another- trusting that the next step will reveal itself. I stand here quietly- paying attention and letting go of planning for the most part- having a sense of the essence of something and then when I see it, or touch it , or hear it, or feel it- walk forward.
I no longer multi-task- in fact I may "do" only one thing a day- no pattern just whatever is up.
I am beginning to feel deep within what my gifts are and have begun to share me hugely and wildly.
I am experiencing life as I have never known it- I have read about this place- where everything is pulsed as a gift.
Yesterday I had a conversation with two friends- one with whom I am creating something to share with the world and the other who I know from my past and I trusted the intuitive hit to reconnect with her- so aligned, fitting perfectly together what we are all doing and Being- creating sustainable living situations with like hearted souls and using technology to reach more people with our gifts. I got off that call and cried and could feel the "being on the other side" of the full letting go and that I am taken care of in such a profound way. There is nothing to fear- I can't even make a "wrong" choice now!
So I am creating the feel of my Heaven on Earth- the essence of freedom, flow, beauty, joy, safety, peace, richness.... Heaven on earth always had other people around, always had land we supported and that supported us- the group I am hanging with has created a house sit opportunity beginning in May-June-July- not being attached to form helps because we don't own it, we have two different houses in May that are in the same neighborhood- and we are flowing the essence of what takes care of all of us.
And because we create such a strong field, we are beginning to flow a service of having people come and stay with us- that too is effortlessly beginning in June. Service to the One and people are appearing.
I am enjoying the space of I can relax now -opening all doors and windows to more, please.
And today, just so you know I called a woman who I had agreed to house-sit in May to tell her I could not do it- the house is in the city and I realize that my being doesn't do so well in the city with the energy vibe there. One of the patterns I have held long to is once I make a committment, honoring it at all costs- I am taking care of mySelf.
And there is another conversation scheduled for later that is about an experience of seeing another out of integrity and how it affected me.... pulsing all as gifts.....
I can Relax now
Love,
Lynn
I am having a challenge tracking when and what all is occurring at this point, but I awoke this morning with a deep,cellular knowing that I can and am taking care of mySelf. This is not just in providing food and shelter and keeping my body healthy- this is about the Being and Living with others and knowing that I can take care of mySelf- that I can take time alone, that I can schedule playtime without any attachment to who shows up, that I can be in support of someone and not take on their stuff.
There is this feeling that has come over me beginning yesterday and continuing today that all I have ever dreamed of or worked towards is about to come true- this is not a fairy tale and it is also not life as I have known it.
I have desired to create heaven on earth, I have desired to have playmates to play with in the garden of Eden, I have desired to be of true service to the One- meaning to allow my mind to get out of the way and trust that my body and Being will know the right words to say, the right action to take, the right gift to give.
And so over the last few years, I have let go of everything- the house I lived in, the jobs , the friends, family, money, car, any sense of thinking I know what is happening, beliefs, stories, patterns. I stand here listening- hearing words or vibrations
from inside, all around; receiving gifts of words or touch from another- trusting that the next step will reveal itself. I stand here quietly- paying attention and letting go of planning for the most part- having a sense of the essence of something and then when I see it, or touch it , or hear it, or feel it- walk forward.
I no longer multi-task- in fact I may "do" only one thing a day- no pattern just whatever is up.
I am beginning to feel deep within what my gifts are and have begun to share me hugely and wildly.
I am experiencing life as I have never known it- I have read about this place- where everything is pulsed as a gift.
Yesterday I had a conversation with two friends- one with whom I am creating something to share with the world and the other who I know from my past and I trusted the intuitive hit to reconnect with her- so aligned, fitting perfectly together what we are all doing and Being- creating sustainable living situations with like hearted souls and using technology to reach more people with our gifts. I got off that call and cried and could feel the "being on the other side" of the full letting go and that I am taken care of in such a profound way. There is nothing to fear- I can't even make a "wrong" choice now!
So I am creating the feel of my Heaven on Earth- the essence of freedom, flow, beauty, joy, safety, peace, richness.... Heaven on earth always had other people around, always had land we supported and that supported us- the group I am hanging with has created a house sit opportunity beginning in May-June-July- not being attached to form helps because we don't own it, we have two different houses in May that are in the same neighborhood- and we are flowing the essence of what takes care of all of us.
And because we create such a strong field, we are beginning to flow a service of having people come and stay with us- that too is effortlessly beginning in June. Service to the One and people are appearing.
I am enjoying the space of I can relax now -opening all doors and windows to more, please.
And today, just so you know I called a woman who I had agreed to house-sit in May to tell her I could not do it- the house is in the city and I realize that my being doesn't do so well in the city with the energy vibe there. One of the patterns I have held long to is once I make a committment, honoring it at all costs- I am taking care of mySelf.
And there is another conversation scheduled for later that is about an experience of seeing another out of integrity and how it affected me.... pulsing all as gifts.....
I can Relax now
Love,
Lynn
Saturday, April 9, 2011
The New
Haven't posted in awhile and believe me it is not because there hasn't been anything happening- have begun to write a few times and it never felt right. Today I am getting messages it is time.
I sit at the window of the office in the house where I am house-sitting- looking out at the pool, the garden, the hummingbirds, the sun shining and I am in appreciation for where I have landed and how I am Being.
I am Being in community here in Mexico- what I mean by that is first I am Being whole and complete of mySelf- creating each day and sometimes more than once a day the core feeling of who I am and then taking action or not from that. I am enjoying time spent with others, but for the first time in my life I am taking care of mySelf. That is not to say it is without fear or shakiness at times- I have that and I have also created in the outer some amazing Beings with whom I can be my authentic self.
Lots of words right- how does that look in life? That is what I have always asked anyone who shares something that feels significant.
That looks like me getting clear that I am about Life. The people whose house I am staying in just lost their daughter and are headed back next week. One of the ways I have always been is strong in the face of death- clients, family- over and over and over- I am the one people looked to- I am no longer the one people can look to- we all have to look inside and find our strength- our core. I decided early on I did not want to be here when they returned- I have done them a great service by being here and lovingly caring for their animals and home and I suspect it will serve them to have their space back as well.
So I opened up to conversations about other house sits- not relying on any of the other members of the four that I hang out with and feeling their support at the same time. I begin another gig at a lovely house next week. It is in alignment with the highest good - including having some time to my self.
Getting back to I am about Life- I had gone to a meeting two weeks ago on Conscious Death- a group here that is beginning a grass roots campaign for death with dignity and choice. Right up my alley (at least in the past) and I could feel the creative juices running- ready to dive right in. I listened this week to the man who heads the group talk again and it just hit me- I am about Life- what am I doing? I am doing the safe thing- the thing that is right here- that I don't have to wait for- the thing I have always done. So I called him this week and blessed the work and said I wasn't going to lend any physical support.
So let's get back to those amazing Beings that are here with me- there are four of us and when we get together it can be magical- worlds can shift just by sitting in quiet. And today I remembered words that I know that were echoed a few times this week- boundaries. When we are in community one of the challenges is to keep our individuality. It is easy to get caught up in the energy of the four of us Being together and it is imporatant to maintain clarity for myself. We are meeting to see what it is that can be created in service and we each come different spaces and different desires- it will be fun to see what gets created with each of us standing strong. We have sounded and drummed together in lovely resonance and we have prepared meals and eaten together in natural flow without any words; we have eaten out and had fun and invited others in to join us. This is a gift and it will only remain so if I stay in my center. Remembering.....
I am looking in a whole and complete way at what else is in my life and does it flow and how it feels. Belonging to an Integrity circle which meets online twice a month was something I created before I left the states- knowing the growth that can happen for me and others in group space; but I relaized this week it wasn't fully serving me and so I initiated a conversation about that. The group meets online and we share and then it falls off in between- I want it all. I no longer create just conversation- I desire authenticity and connection as much as is possible.
Yesterday I was asked to see if there was anything that was keeping me from experiencing everything around richness that I desired- this was asked by a mentor/teacher and I found myself in my mind swirling- where I haven't felt in a while. The only answers were from my mind- I have to take baby steps.... Then we watched the movie What Dreams May Come and that magnified for me the mind. For the first time I feel in a different space- I do see that I am not experiencing everything around richness that is desired because I do not at this moment have lots of cash flowing in- and I am experiencing richness in all the many other ways I desire. I feel like I can ask as I did today- How can I experience even more richness today? Which opens up possibilities- because if I rely on my mind- well it can't possibly know- it only knows what has been experienced in the past and the worry about the future. I am open to receive cash for my service, cash as a surprise and I am taking steps when aligned towards this. So I am comfortable in this space and owning it rather than trying to figure it out- owning it to my mentor/teacher and owning it me- I am loving myself and in gratitude for this new space...
During morning practice I heard to slow down, to trust and to reconnect to center- I take that into this day!
With love,
Lynn
I sit at the window of the office in the house where I am house-sitting- looking out at the pool, the garden, the hummingbirds, the sun shining and I am in appreciation for where I have landed and how I am Being.
I am Being in community here in Mexico- what I mean by that is first I am Being whole and complete of mySelf- creating each day and sometimes more than once a day the core feeling of who I am and then taking action or not from that. I am enjoying time spent with others, but for the first time in my life I am taking care of mySelf. That is not to say it is without fear or shakiness at times- I have that and I have also created in the outer some amazing Beings with whom I can be my authentic self.
Lots of words right- how does that look in life? That is what I have always asked anyone who shares something that feels significant.
That looks like me getting clear that I am about Life. The people whose house I am staying in just lost their daughter and are headed back next week. One of the ways I have always been is strong in the face of death- clients, family- over and over and over- I am the one people looked to- I am no longer the one people can look to- we all have to look inside and find our strength- our core. I decided early on I did not want to be here when they returned- I have done them a great service by being here and lovingly caring for their animals and home and I suspect it will serve them to have their space back as well.
So I opened up to conversations about other house sits- not relying on any of the other members of the four that I hang out with and feeling their support at the same time. I begin another gig at a lovely house next week. It is in alignment with the highest good - including having some time to my self.
Getting back to I am about Life- I had gone to a meeting two weeks ago on Conscious Death- a group here that is beginning a grass roots campaign for death with dignity and choice. Right up my alley (at least in the past) and I could feel the creative juices running- ready to dive right in. I listened this week to the man who heads the group talk again and it just hit me- I am about Life- what am I doing? I am doing the safe thing- the thing that is right here- that I don't have to wait for- the thing I have always done. So I called him this week and blessed the work and said I wasn't going to lend any physical support.
So let's get back to those amazing Beings that are here with me- there are four of us and when we get together it can be magical- worlds can shift just by sitting in quiet. And today I remembered words that I know that were echoed a few times this week- boundaries. When we are in community one of the challenges is to keep our individuality. It is easy to get caught up in the energy of the four of us Being together and it is imporatant to maintain clarity for myself. We are meeting to see what it is that can be created in service and we each come different spaces and different desires- it will be fun to see what gets created with each of us standing strong. We have sounded and drummed together in lovely resonance and we have prepared meals and eaten together in natural flow without any words; we have eaten out and had fun and invited others in to join us. This is a gift and it will only remain so if I stay in my center. Remembering.....
I am looking in a whole and complete way at what else is in my life and does it flow and how it feels. Belonging to an Integrity circle which meets online twice a month was something I created before I left the states- knowing the growth that can happen for me and others in group space; but I relaized this week it wasn't fully serving me and so I initiated a conversation about that. The group meets online and we share and then it falls off in between- I want it all. I no longer create just conversation- I desire authenticity and connection as much as is possible.
Yesterday I was asked to see if there was anything that was keeping me from experiencing everything around richness that I desired- this was asked by a mentor/teacher and I found myself in my mind swirling- where I haven't felt in a while. The only answers were from my mind- I have to take baby steps.... Then we watched the movie What Dreams May Come and that magnified for me the mind. For the first time I feel in a different space- I do see that I am not experiencing everything around richness that is desired because I do not at this moment have lots of cash flowing in- and I am experiencing richness in all the many other ways I desire. I feel like I can ask as I did today- How can I experience even more richness today? Which opens up possibilities- because if I rely on my mind- well it can't possibly know- it only knows what has been experienced in the past and the worry about the future. I am open to receive cash for my service, cash as a surprise and I am taking steps when aligned towards this. So I am comfortable in this space and owning it rather than trying to figure it out- owning it to my mentor/teacher and owning it me- I am loving myself and in gratitude for this new space...
During morning practice I heard to slow down, to trust and to reconnect to center- I take that into this day!
With love,
Lynn
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